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maybe not goodbye then. i don't know what to do. i can't stop shaking and my spine feels like ive snapped it every time i move.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i feel like ive just woken up after a bad dream.
but the dream is my life.
a life in which even my 'friends' don't want to spend time with me. even when they do its only because they need something or someone to take the pictures. or they can't go on their own.
i wonder when she's gonna come back online and read my email.
i hope she mails me back.
i want to know what she thinks.
did she know?
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i feel like ive just woken up after a bad dream.
but the dream is my life.
a life in which even my 'friends' don't want to spend time with me. even when they do its only because they need something or someone to take the pictures. or they can't go on their own.
i wonder when she's gonna come back online and read my email.
i hope she mails me back.
i want to know what she thinks.
did she know?