Rambles...
Taking control of my dog's lives has taught me to take better control of my own. I make healthier eating decisions because I learned about nutrition...for my dogs. I get exercise now because dogs need exercise. I've even learned how to change deeply ingrained behavior patterns thanks to dogs. I have always been a self-sacrificer, I have always made changes to suit other's needs. And I don't think of myself as a martyr for that. The people and animals that asked me to make change saved my life. Because for so long I could not find worth in myself. I didn't see a point in being a better person in such a shitty world. I'm not trying to preach or anything. I don't even know what I'm really trying to say, I think I just want to thank all the people and animals in my life that made it worth living. They helped me limp along for the first few years of my life so I could have this realization that I can make change in the world. Being good isn't just in vain. I see worth in myself, and I see accomplishment in my future. Things I never could have realized on my own. And truth be told, animals did a hell of a lot better job silently reassuring me of these things then any one human being ever could have, because humans just don't know when to shut the hell up. Humans don't know how to NOT project their own feelings of worthlessness on each other. It seems to be something of a group think thing. Humans feel shitty about being human so they make everything else around them shitty too...and the cycle goes on and on. Be the change you want to see in the world, that's the biggest change you can make.