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I remember how you felt sleeping next to me. I remember that first night... nothing will ever make me forget it... even if I try... I remember how hot your room used to get and so we opened the window when it was freezing outside. I remember the smell of the breeze that came through the window... Your eyes right after waking up.. waking up in your arms that brought a smile to my face the second I woke up... I remember that candy wreath when it got down to the gross candy that no one wanted to eat. I remember throwing up after getting drunk on your birthday and kinda ruining your 21st but you didn't really care that much.. but I felt bad anyway... I remember your smile when you looked at me.... and I remember how you'll never look at me that way again. Nothing will ever fix it. That light is gone. And I'm the one that blew it out. I wish so badly I could change this. I wish I could change how you feel. I wish you still looked at me like that. I remember watching you play and being completely mesmerized. I could only watch you. I remember the first time I saw you... I never imagined I'd actually talk to you... or fall in love with you... or hurt you... but it all happened. And it's all over now. And even after time it still feels like I just lost you yesterday. Even after trying to move on. Being in love again. But nope... it's not the same... and all I want is to get it back...
it's hard sometimes... but writing helps a little... i'll get over it.. eventually...
it's getting easier to sleep with just a few nights like this... it's 5:30 am and all I can see is your face.
it's hard sometimes... but writing helps a little... i'll get over it.. eventually...
it's getting easier to sleep with just a few nights like this... it's 5:30 am and all I can see is your face.