What's the word...
Erratic!! That's it... My entries are rather erratic and quite spaced out because I never have much to say anymore. I really think my communication skills have severely deteriorated over the years. I used to be so good at telling the truth. Just coming right out and saying how I feel and what I want. Not so much anymore. If it's anything I know will hurt someone... I drag it out... for as long as possible.. and usually they end up doing something about it or I end up blurting it out in a horribly mean way because I'm so damn fed up. The first time that happened was with Rich. I hurt him terribly badly because i kept my feelings bottled up. I realize how horrible of a person I was to him... he's in my english class so I see him every monday and wednesday now... it's a little awkward.. but I hope we can at least sort of be friends and not be so awkward.. I need to find something to occupy myself for the next 4 hours now... I have plans at 8... but nothing until then.. and I don't wanna sit around on my computer... I will not be a lazy bum today! I think I'm going to City Club later maybe... If the ATM doesn't yell at me and tell me I can't have any money. Which is what I'm off to do now... Try the ATM... woo... Maybe i'll write more later...
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