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ugh the past 2 days have been wierd~!
I was sick all day yesterday then around the time to go to church I finally woke up enough to drive (I took that to mean I needed to get my butt to church more often :\) But anyway, I had Alot of fun there playin v-ball, and I'm so happy Im getting back to normal with my shoulder since i got injured and it feels really good to actually excersize without having to worry about making things worse.
But today was interesting, Brock called me about 3 in the morning on his way to work and we talked for about 45 mins while he drove and we had some kinda funny conversations and stuff (from what I can remember)...
Then when I woke up this morning I had to get some stuff ready for this meeting and everything and clean, and he called during lunch and i told him I had this meeting ( Im doing 2 day camps this summer for LAF) but I guess he forgot cuz now hes kinda upset that I couldnt talk to him when he called me at 6 (exactly when the meeting started) ERG.... so he started half yelling at me blah blah blah and I was getting frustrated cuz now I keep feeling like hes just not listening when I tell him stuff more than twice and I feel like its kinda important for me and my resume and apps. etc jus grrr I know iM probably over reacting but thats jus how its makin me feel the more I think about it *hits head on desk hoping Ill stop thinking*.....I need to pray about this..... and hope that it calms down a bit. I'm starting to get stressed thinking about what alls going to happen once I get back from Fl in Feb.
I still have to put final planning together for Prom, I have these 2 day camps to put together ( Drama and Eco Art & Science), Im teaching canoeing just about every weekend for a month and a half and I need to get a job BAD, which requires finding more dedication time :\ Lord plz help me ~sighs....
that and I need to figure out whether or not graduating is really what I should be doing this year, I keep thinking it is, It will open more options for me I think, and it will give me a some more time to dabble and really just work my butt off and save some $$ and I can really just focus on my photography and really figure myself out. I just found out that Glissel (sp?) is credited with St. Joseph University which im pretty happy about because it gives some 'security' for some people knowing that its not JUST a Trade school but it hold more water. Esp. for my dad and his wife which is good so I dont have to second guess what they're thinking and worry that they think my education is goin down the drain. but W/e Im just really rambeling here huh? I guess Im just anouther Teen wanting to Get Things freakin started but dunno where to start. Blah why couldnt I just stay 5 forever.... I miss being 5 everything was so frekain perfect.
I guess Ill shush :\
Ima go do some major reflection and just get everything straight in my head.
Love yall mucho
I was sick all day yesterday then around the time to go to church I finally woke up enough to drive (I took that to mean I needed to get my butt to church more often :\) But anyway, I had Alot of fun there playin v-ball, and I'm so happy Im getting back to normal with my shoulder since i got injured and it feels really good to actually excersize without having to worry about making things worse.
But today was interesting, Brock called me about 3 in the morning on his way to work and we talked for about 45 mins while he drove and we had some kinda funny conversations and stuff (from what I can remember)...
Then when I woke up this morning I had to get some stuff ready for this meeting and everything and clean, and he called during lunch and i told him I had this meeting ( Im doing 2 day camps this summer for LAF) but I guess he forgot cuz now hes kinda upset that I couldnt talk to him when he called me at 6 (exactly when the meeting started) ERG.... so he started half yelling at me blah blah blah and I was getting frustrated cuz now I keep feeling like hes just not listening when I tell him stuff more than twice and I feel like its kinda important for me and my resume and apps. etc jus grrr I know iM probably over reacting but thats jus how its makin me feel the more I think about it *hits head on desk hoping Ill stop thinking*.....I need to pray about this..... and hope that it calms down a bit. I'm starting to get stressed thinking about what alls going to happen once I get back from Fl in Feb.
I still have to put final planning together for Prom, I have these 2 day camps to put together ( Drama and Eco Art & Science), Im teaching canoeing just about every weekend for a month and a half and I need to get a job BAD, which requires finding more dedication time :\ Lord plz help me ~sighs....
that and I need to figure out whether or not graduating is really what I should be doing this year, I keep thinking it is, It will open more options for me I think, and it will give me a some more time to dabble and really just work my butt off and save some $$ and I can really just focus on my photography and really figure myself out. I just found out that Glissel (sp?) is credited with St. Joseph University which im pretty happy about because it gives some 'security' for some people knowing that its not JUST a Trade school but it hold more water. Esp. for my dad and his wife which is good so I dont have to second guess what they're thinking and worry that they think my education is goin down the drain. but W/e Im just really rambeling here huh? I guess Im just anouther Teen wanting to Get Things freakin started but dunno where to start. Blah why couldnt I just stay 5 forever.... I miss being 5 everything was so frekain perfect.
I guess Ill shush :\
Ima go do some major reflection and just get everything straight in my head.
Love yall mucho