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i don't mean to write about how much the world sucks...but it flows nicely and i never fall short of finding something to write about. i like tupac. it's really cold in my room the most i think.tomorrow i am going to go to the mall. everytime i say something deep to him, he takes it to heart and doesn't talk anymore, and i don't know what he's thinking, and it makes me nervous. so now i dont want to say anything anymore. and i always feel talked at...not talked to.i hate that.i got a new nailpolish color.i put a little left over somethin somethin in the brownies.i like the smiths i love his voice. my grandma had a seizure, i think she'll be okay for now i guess. i like her alot. she's nice and not nice at the sametime, i wanna be like her, hard working and stuff.i like driving sometimes. especialy while listening to nirvana. i havent been to bed before 5 in about a week and a half. i hope this doesnt persist. school really fucking sucks and i dont have the heart to tell my mom i REALLY can't do this anymore.someone tell her for me. someimes pretendind to be in love and falling for some insecure man and getting married and having children sounds appealing.i have a feeling there will be some new variable added to my life soon, and im not really looking foward to what it is.....maybe it will be good, but i doubt it.it will be a negative variable i give it a month. i dont think i would read this if i weren't writing it, because there's no paragraph breaks. i don't feel like hitting enter.oh when i go to the mall tomorrow im going to buy more nag champa.and that's probably it.i kind of want a crawfish.w/ a painted shell. i should see how much they are.i think im goig through an i need some lovin phase, like i really want a cat or a DOG REALLY to have. maybe i'll get some bras and underwears, but that can be pricey. oh yeah i rearended a car a few days ago because i zoned off. and it just kept going. i felt so bad there was like a BOKNSOWEB noise and it snapped me back, and i was like almost started crying because i felt sooo stupid.but there wasn't any damages, and they had a NICE car...honda or somthing, but they just kept going.i was like ooooooookAY. i've rekindled my love of homestarruner. especially the teen girl squad....it makes me laugh. okay well im done