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[torpeeeedo]

RICKY is back.
I got to see him tonight... and it made my fucking night.
2 years. 2 YEARS since I last saw that boy.
it's so so nice, when the boys come home. :] :] :]

on other notes...
we are so much alike.
way way too much alike...
like the way you stuck around so long
because neither of us can sleep
and the way everything makes sense
and the unspoken.... the unspoken everything that seeps from our eyes and hangs in the air
there's too much I already miss
too much I want to be a part of...
Change can be good but it hurts.
and i can't help but remember, (everything)
and can't help wishing I were still there
I may have just fucked a lot of that up
but at least we admit...
we're shitty.
but those words
about leaving this place and all the attachment
(so you dont have to go through it all again)
in a way stab
stab and make me giddy all the same
I would fall apart.
bad.
I'm a pain in your ass, I know
and you in mine
yet we stick around.
for reasons
you can see it in our eyes
(you've become the biggest part of me, lately)

and now maybe, I'm tired enough to fall asleep.

My mind is too damn full to be sane.