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"It keeps coming back in my most vulnerable moments,
The dim lights, my hand underneath my chin-
Gazing down at the table hopelessly while my friends happily chattered.
Then, for some unknown reason, I looked up to him standing on the stair behind our booth"....
Wow. I started writing that on here a couple weeks ago and it pulled it up when I signed on this morning... Wanna hear the rest? Let me know.
So, first class of the day 8 AM... sitting there for 15 minutes when a random professor walks in to tell us our teacher won't be coming. Sign a paper for roll... and here I am. Writing to you. Sounds exciting huh? Now I got another 45 minutes till I have to be in my next class. I even woke up at 6:30 this morning so that I wouldn't be late. AND THEN. I even left my house "late"... I got here at 7:41. Yikes. 19 minutes early on the first day of school? Seems like I'm a freshman all over again. So, I chilled in the car for a while with the rent-a-cop parking-lot-nazi staring at me most the time, prolly wondering suspiciously what I was up to. haha. I'm sure he'll get used to the sight though. It's not that unusual...
Well, I have a busy day- and with my luck- no time to stop and think. But that could be good.
6:30- Wake Up
8- Rock & Roll History (MWF)
9- American Sign Language (MTWTh)
10- Institute (MW)
11- Communication (MWF)
12- Geology (MWF)
1- Geology Lab (MWF)
Did you catch the glitch? Yeah, on Fridays I'm gonna have a 2-hour break between 9 & 11. My Sign language class doesn't meet on Fridays, and my institute class meets only on Mondays and Wednesdays. Oy. This is gonna be a messed up semester. At least that will give me time to do my homework I suppose... I'm sure to get a lot of it.
Today, once I get out of my lab at 1:50, I have to FLY to the bank to get my scholarship check cashed. Hopefully have a little lunch, then go to work @ 3... till 10. That's a standard 16 hour non-stop flight day. Haven't had one of them in a while.
Doesn't it surprise you sometimes how one thing can throw on a bit o' depression? Eppe told me last Friday night that he was leaving Staples. Either fired, or quitting... or having no choice. I'm not sure. I just know that they aren't giving him the hours he needs. They are cutting everyone's b/c our sales aren't high enough. I heard this whole spiel for Copy Center. Which I kinda understand, because now that teacher's Are BACK to school.... huge binding jobs, and copying jobs, and wide format laminating are gonna prolly go down. (Teachers are our biggest income at this time of the year.) But the actual store itself? C'mon. Those guys work their tales off, and we're one of the biggest and busiest stores in the valley. And they say we're not making budget? Piss off. Anyway, him leaving as made me quite sad. I mean, we were just starting to get comfortable with ourselves. And he and I were the last ones from our original orientations and hiring. The other guy has already left, and now if Eppe leaves, I'm all alone again. If he truly leaves (He's on the schedule for this week- so I don't know if he'll be there or not.), I am gonna try and tranfer once I hit 3 months. Not that I don't like the other people I work with- but I could learn so much more from the store 1320 and stay so much busier and be only 5 minutes from home and work. They aren't doing anything to make me want to stay.
They told me when I was hired that I would be able to pick up shifts all over the place and NEVER be short on hours. Yeah, right. The managers that said that are now leaving and opening a new store and taking 1/2 our employees with them. And we're getting a bunch of frickin' transfers and greenies... not green like Dane, green as in newbies- just to clear that up. It bites. Anyway, I CAN'T pickup shifts because they give me STUPID hours like 5-10 EVERYDAY so I can't pick up new shifts because I get 25 hours a week... but the problem is I don't have days off so I Can't pick up someone's 2-9 shift and get 7 hours because I Have to commit to a fetchin' 5 hour shift at night... errr. It make me mad
Now I'm dissapointed in work.
And that's never good. It's what cause me to "leave" Applebee's.
and P.S. I told my mom about Eppe leaving, and she was like "Good."
I threw a dirty look and asked Why. She said "You know you were falling for him more than you'd tell me. Now you don't have to worry about it. You said it yourself you didn't want to let yourself like him. He's not a member."
Grrr. I threw a fit in front of whoever was in the room and stormed out.
She knew that wasn't the response I wanted.