I Don't Want to Do This Anymore
I'm in love with someone I shouldn't be
I knew about the feelings for a long time now. But I have gotten really good at pushing them to the back of my mind and pretending they don't exist. They resurface every once in a while, and I can't really help it. When I said there were only 1 or 2 people here that I would stay for if they asked me to, I meant it. And, he's one of them. It's no secret.
He's charming. Lovable and caring. Funny and sweet. Family oriented and surrounded by friends. Honest and loyal.
Yeah, but why would I like someone who didn't have those qualities. Anyway, I know he doesn't feel the same way. I think I mean something to him in a different way though. A long time ago I was sitting beside him and he turned and looked at me with a smile and slightly hesitated before asking me something. I stared right into those eyes of his and the fleeting thought of those feeling surfaced but I beat it back quickly to make sure I wouldn't be reminded. I guess I've always felt like I've gotten special attention from him, but I don't know how others see it.
Whether or not he loves me as a friend or in another way. I love him. If he ever changed his mind to love me in a way more than friends, I would jump at the chance. I know it won't happen- for a Fact. But, I will always love him as he is. *Smile*
I knew about the feelings for a long time now. But I have gotten really good at pushing them to the back of my mind and pretending they don't exist. They resurface every once in a while, and I can't really help it. When I said there were only 1 or 2 people here that I would stay for if they asked me to, I meant it. And, he's one of them. It's no secret.
He's charming. Lovable and caring. Funny and sweet. Family oriented and surrounded by friends. Honest and loyal.
Yeah, but why would I like someone who didn't have those qualities. Anyway, I know he doesn't feel the same way. I think I mean something to him in a different way though. A long time ago I was sitting beside him and he turned and looked at me with a smile and slightly hesitated before asking me something. I stared right into those eyes of his and the fleeting thought of those feeling surfaced but I beat it back quickly to make sure I wouldn't be reminded. I guess I've always felt like I've gotten special attention from him, but I don't know how others see it.
Whether or not he loves me as a friend or in another way. I love him. If he ever changed his mind to love me in a way more than friends, I would jump at the chance. I know it won't happen- for a Fact. But, I will always love him as he is. *Smile*