it's been three years, one month, & seven days since i met you
it's some twisted strange thing, the way i still love you. i knew it would happen & i knew it would be different than before but i don't know what i want from you because of it. do i want some remnant of you loving me akin to mine when it's been two years since it died & 1 1/2 since it was over? or do i just want your friendship. it's so hard to tell when before they were tied always.
funny how a boy who's now a man can change if he seeks me out based on a comment by a surprised mutual friend. i haven't really talked to you since, but it's not in an insulting manner. my how you've changed. nothing used to matter to you before.
we accept each other & we like each other to some extent as people but i feel i'll never be certain if we're friends when truly you're the only one who matters to me more than my life, at least from before. i'll always care about you.
i bought you a small christmas present this year, the same one as always but you do enjoy it so.
when i could do it before, out of desperation from my feelings still being there when yours were not, i could always give it to you.
i was too afraid to give it to you.
funny how a boy who's now a man can change if he seeks me out based on a comment by a surprised mutual friend. i haven't really talked to you since, but it's not in an insulting manner. my how you've changed. nothing used to matter to you before.
we accept each other & we like each other to some extent as people but i feel i'll never be certain if we're friends when truly you're the only one who matters to me more than my life, at least from before. i'll always care about you.
i bought you a small christmas present this year, the same one as always but you do enjoy it so.
when i could do it before, out of desperation from my feelings still being there when yours were not, i could always give it to you.
i was too afraid to give it to you.