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Wow.
I couldnt help but look at Bonnies journal. I was looking for Austons, and just decided to check hers out. It kind of sucked to see her describe her life in such an amazing way, Like she has everything going for her. Kinda made me jealous. I mean, shes going out and as all these amazing times and shit, and then Im here. Yeah I know sometimes I'd rather stay in then go out with my friends, but I mean....Its hard to explain.
I just wish for once something would be on my side. Like something could happen to me. Something good. Not like a good grade or something like that, somehting Amazing. Maybe Im just complaing to much. But I feel like some things are missing. Some of my friends even wish I could have some happiness in my life. I dont know. I dont know what I want anymore, its not like I can get it. Im better off living with what I have. But whats the point if your not going to be happy about it?