aw ok, so thats how its gunna be
i think my dad and i are really really done with eachother. he accused me of smoking weed in my room last night witch i DIDENT do. now he is "locking" me down. i guess i cant go out this weekend and if i leave, hes going to call the cops and tell them i ran away. i cant believe how much i dislike my dad, it almost feels like hate, i want nothing else but for him to stay out of my life. i feel like crying. all i want to do this weekend is hang out with john. i feel so great when im with him, he makes me feel awesome. and i want to fuckin kick the shit out of myslef for being so dumb. from now on i have to really really make sure i cover my ass, my dad cant know when i do shit, what i do and who i do it with. i think hes about to put me in rhab or somthing, that would be funny as hell oh my part because it would be one hell of a wast of time and money. ummm ya. i think im gunna go smoke, i need to fuckin relax. im going out of my mind