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[tornpaperwrists]

im bored and i just wanted to update
so i cleaned my room the other day
and found alllllllll this old stuff
i mean old
haha
signs i had made, stuff that i stuck in the front
of my folders, his pictures and letters and eh
i really had forgotten where i had stuck all of it
It makes me wonder if he still has my things
or maybe he threw them all out along with my lies
it makes me wonder if i should keep his things
or if i should throw them all out along with my lies
part of me does, and part of me doesnt
im not gonna lie, i really miss him as a friend
but he wants nothing to do with me
and i truly truly respect that
Sometimes i feel bad that
maybe im why he feels so screwed up
and then i think
i shouldnt flatter myself
that he could prolly care less about me now
and for the rest of his life
i think of writing him letters
trying to apologize and in some way be forgiven
i dont think he'll ever grant me that
and that is okay
on that note im gonna sign off
and i guess i just wanted him to know
that i am still here

p.s. Pretty soon i will post some picks from Coheed a couple weeks ago and Copeland in FL oh and me and craig of course :)

xoxox
Amanda