Grandfather's Funeral
Note: Many of you know the background of the family stuff involved in this man, and the rest of you can ask if you so desire. It's not something to be explained on the nets.
I was fine through the service. Sure, it was sad, but I wasn't broken up by it, or anything. My grandfather and I were never that close, and the history of what's happened made me not feel that much for him.
My mother's voice, however, broke my heart. She has a beautiful singing voice, but rarely do I get the chance to hear it. Hearing so much sadness and grief in it, and yet having it be so pure and clear was one of the hardest things I think I've ever had to hear.
Knowing that there was nothing I could do to take away that pain, nothing I could do to make it all better again, was one of the worst feelings I've had.
So much beauty in so much pain and nothing to do but exist.
I can hardly see the screen right now...
I was fine through the service. Sure, it was sad, but I wasn't broken up by it, or anything. My grandfather and I were never that close, and the history of what's happened made me not feel that much for him.
My mother's voice, however, broke my heart. She has a beautiful singing voice, but rarely do I get the chance to hear it. Hearing so much sadness and grief in it, and yet having it be so pure and clear was one of the hardest things I think I've ever had to hear.
Knowing that there was nothing I could do to take away that pain, nothing I could do to make it all better again, was one of the worst feelings I've had.
So much beauty in so much pain and nothing to do but exist.
I can hardly see the screen right now...