a sour candy in the cake...
there are some things i love about being at home:
1) being with my family
2) NO CAFETERIA FOOD!!!
3) being comfortable
4) feeling loved
some things i dont like so much:
1) feeling like an outsider
2) arguing amist the family
3) often i dont know whats edible anymore in the fridge
4) messiness everywhere
so i guess im kinda split on this, but im always split on everything, thats how i weigh my choices, i have to look at both sides of the fence before i lean one way or another... and i know that annoys ppl so bad how im indecisive like that, but its a rare decision that i make a decision on the fly like that, if i have time to think about something, i tend to overanalyze it and beat the horse dead before its even born... lol... bad habit i need to kick...
theres one thing that absolutely drives me insane and makes me so weary of religion altogether-- the fact that mom and dad fight about it so much. ususally it consists of dad making an on the fly decision thats church related and moms yelling at him, saying, why didnt you talk to me about this? did you think about this? what about that? huh? whats wrong with you? and then it usually goes that moms all like, well, whatever, youve already decided... and its 50-50 on whether dad does it or not... but im so weary of religion because they fight about it so much, its such a touchy subject in my house, and i hate that. i hate not having what other mormon families have-- that comfortablilty to talk about things openly. i feel like religion is a closed subject area alot of the time, and its made me really weary of what i am as a person. i hate that unstableness that exists in my family, but i dont know how to make it better... i just want things to be normal! i want things to be good, no chaos in my family... im trying to look at how to do things for when i have a family of my own someday, and i dont know how to fix some of the major problems... maybe it'll come to me in time? yeah, thats wishful thinking if there ever was a wishful thought...
oh we had chloe's 1st birthday party today, and that was fun... too bad the camera screwed up halfway through dinner, so we didnt get pics of her opening her toy piano and going to town on swiss cake rolls... ill post more pics after a while...
1) being with my family
2) NO CAFETERIA FOOD!!!
3) being comfortable
4) feeling loved
some things i dont like so much:
1) feeling like an outsider
2) arguing amist the family
3) often i dont know whats edible anymore in the fridge
4) messiness everywhere
so i guess im kinda split on this, but im always split on everything, thats how i weigh my choices, i have to look at both sides of the fence before i lean one way or another... and i know that annoys ppl so bad how im indecisive like that, but its a rare decision that i make a decision on the fly like that, if i have time to think about something, i tend to overanalyze it and beat the horse dead before its even born... lol... bad habit i need to kick...
theres one thing that absolutely drives me insane and makes me so weary of religion altogether-- the fact that mom and dad fight about it so much. ususally it consists of dad making an on the fly decision thats church related and moms yelling at him, saying, why didnt you talk to me about this? did you think about this? what about that? huh? whats wrong with you? and then it usually goes that moms all like, well, whatever, youve already decided... and its 50-50 on whether dad does it or not... but im so weary of religion because they fight about it so much, its such a touchy subject in my house, and i hate that. i hate not having what other mormon families have-- that comfortablilty to talk about things openly. i feel like religion is a closed subject area alot of the time, and its made me really weary of what i am as a person. i hate that unstableness that exists in my family, but i dont know how to make it better... i just want things to be normal! i want things to be good, no chaos in my family... im trying to look at how to do things for when i have a family of my own someday, and i dont know how to fix some of the major problems... maybe it'll come to me in time? yeah, thats wishful thinking if there ever was a wishful thought...
oh we had chloe's 1st birthday party today, and that was fun... too bad the camera screwed up halfway through dinner, so we didnt get pics of her opening her toy piano and going to town on swiss cake rolls... ill post more pics after a while...