i did it
you all know that one thing that always messed you up in the past. the one thing you could never say "no" to. the one thing that you wished you could just walk away from but it has a magnetic force that refuses to let you go.
i admit. that magnet is still there. but i no longer wish to be drawn in. i can say "no". i can feel arms around me and faces nuzzled up in the cranny of my neck and pleads being put forth. "stay tonight, please"
and i can say "no". and it's not something that i have to think twice about. i can defeat this. i can go against everything that threw me off for the past three and a half years. i can defeat you, beautiful...wonderful boy. and as much as i always wanted to love you. i don't need to want that anymore. i can set this whole thing free. i can let this go.
and that's wonderful. that gives me the type of hope that lingers around matt and i. i can do this.
i admit. that magnet is still there. but i no longer wish to be drawn in. i can say "no". i can feel arms around me and faces nuzzled up in the cranny of my neck and pleads being put forth. "stay tonight, please"
and i can say "no". and it's not something that i have to think twice about. i can defeat this. i can go against everything that threw me off for the past three and a half years. i can defeat you, beautiful...wonderful boy. and as much as i always wanted to love you. i don't need to want that anymore. i can set this whole thing free. i can let this go.
and that's wonderful. that gives me the type of hope that lingers around matt and i. i can do this.