don't worry about a thing
i have found myself in such an optimistic mood today. i am incredibly ok with that. matt called me to inform me that he called in sick to work because he was up vomiting all night. i went and took care of him friday and saturday and he was feeling quite a bit better and he felt good at work on sunday. then on sunday night it got even worse. i feel so bad for him but what can i do? he'll be fine.
i got pretty stoned on saturday night with him, and he was trying to write some music for an RPG that max (his friend) is making (max is in video game making school, that's the technical name for it). ANYWAY i was listening to him jam on his keyboard and computer combined, and i was overwhelmed with respect for him. he's so amazingly talented. i mean....how the hell does someone have that much creativity off the top of their head like that? i can't even begin to comprehend how he does it.
i am rather confused right now, as well. i came to a realization last night that i have never felt about matt the way i do now. like i thought i was in love with him before (before i "fell out" of love with him and dumped him), but what i feel for him now is SO MUCH stronger than ever. suzanne suggests it could be loving, losing, and regaining which gives me a new appreciation, but what if i wasn't in love with him until now? What if there's no way to know? what does it even matter?
Anyway....so optimistic today, don't know why, but I am. and i am OF COURSE thrilled about it.
I love my life, life in general as a matter of fact. We all have been down. And we all know how down i've gotten. But being down makes these up moments so awesome!!
i got pretty stoned on saturday night with him, and he was trying to write some music for an RPG that max (his friend) is making (max is in video game making school, that's the technical name for it). ANYWAY i was listening to him jam on his keyboard and computer combined, and i was overwhelmed with respect for him. he's so amazingly talented. i mean....how the hell does someone have that much creativity off the top of their head like that? i can't even begin to comprehend how he does it.
i am rather confused right now, as well. i came to a realization last night that i have never felt about matt the way i do now. like i thought i was in love with him before (before i "fell out" of love with him and dumped him), but what i feel for him now is SO MUCH stronger than ever. suzanne suggests it could be loving, losing, and regaining which gives me a new appreciation, but what if i wasn't in love with him until now? What if there's no way to know? what does it even matter?
Anyway....so optimistic today, don't know why, but I am. and i am OF COURSE thrilled about it.
I love my life, life in general as a matter of fact. We all have been down. And we all know how down i've gotten. But being down makes these up moments so awesome!!