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What to say what to say.....Well first off, I put a different entry in here first..but i need to write it all down.....but then again maybe that's what a fucking journal is for. ( i mean one you can put under your bed or something). I guess to sum it up....i can't feel it. i can't feel the "pure" happiness that everyone else gets day in and day out. i feel so dead inside. so damn fucking dead. it leaves me at nothing.....nothing nothing. i feel so dead. it's no ones fault, maybe mine.i don't know. i don't mean to be like this..and i wish it didn't punish him.....but it does. because i'm dead inside i have to watch it ruin something so necessary in a relationship. that makes me so unbelievably depressed. i can't go everyday without ..... keeping that one promise. i can't anymore! I'M SORRY. i don't know what to do. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO!!!! i hate ...i hate myself. i wish i could hate all of you. maybe it would make my life so much easier if i could just hate everyone and leave it at that.
-meg
-meg