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So, I erased every single entry. I just felt that everything I had written in it is old and forgotten. So ya, fresh start. I did feel like shit again for no reason today. I keep thinking I have the answers to why I feel this way, so I do something to "fix" my problem. But all my ideas suck because i'm wrong. Maybe I just can't fix them.I should stop trying so damn hard to try and fix myself if I can't do it. When I go home tomorrow to dad's cindy should be asking me when I would like to see the doctor. I'm gonna tell her most likely the very next day or friday because those are my days off. So ya, just like always i feel like shit for no apparent reason and can't do anything about it at the moment either. Angela sounds like she (like always) is having the time of her life and i just sit here thinking "atleast someone is enjoying themselves".lol. Everyone seems to have a handle on everything except for me. I should really try and get on that. I still want to do all those fabulous self distructive actions when I feel sad, but i don't. People don't want me to, and I don't want to have to go through the emotions of having to tell the people that love me that i (once again) made a stupid decision off of strong emotions.
I was talking to my mom the other night and I was just saying that when my little sister (nikki) goes to high school, she will go through so many things she thinks she will never go through. Believe me i didn't think I'd do any of the things that i've done. when your little you think of life as such a simple little story. Believe me...nothing is simple in this world. maybe it is just high school that fucks you up...or maybe it's just the phase that just happens (coincidentally) during high school. I don't know. Maybe i'm just thinking too much right now.
School is coming soon. It starts in almost exactly a week. A week exactly this morning at 7:00. I'm scared, nervous, and excited all at the same time. We are also packing right now. This is really gonna happen. We are going to move into this house in the "ghetto neighborhood". hey..it's a house. ya never know, maybe i might just live in an area like angelas. where half the people there are ghetto, but a few people down the street are pretty cool. ::crosses fingers::. that's it. ::raises glass::.....HERE'S TO A NEW SCHOOL YEAR. MAY MY LAST YEAR AT VEGAS HIGH ATLEAST SUCK LESS THAN BEFORE.
-meg
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I was talking to my mom the other night and I was just saying that when my little sister (nikki) goes to high school, she will go through so many things she thinks she will never go through. Believe me i didn't think I'd do any of the things that i've done. when your little you think of life as such a simple little story. Believe me...nothing is simple in this world. maybe it is just high school that fucks you up...or maybe it's just the phase that just happens (coincidentally) during high school. I don't know. Maybe i'm just thinking too much right now.
School is coming soon. It starts in almost exactly a week. A week exactly this morning at 7:00. I'm scared, nervous, and excited all at the same time. We are also packing right now. This is really gonna happen. We are going to move into this house in the "ghetto neighborhood". hey..it's a house. ya never know, maybe i might just live in an area like angelas. where half the people there are ghetto, but a few people down the street are pretty cool. ::crosses fingers::. that's it. ::raises glass::.....HERE'S TO A NEW SCHOOL YEAR. MAY MY LAST YEAR AT VEGAS HIGH ATLEAST SUCK LESS THAN BEFORE.
-meg
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