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John came over to start on a powerpoint project, so we hung out for awhile.
I want school to be done already, so I can get my ass out of here and start a new life...who knows what the future has in store...
As days and nights pass by, I feel that Mexico will be good to me. Maybe I was meant to live there since the beginning, all my life I felt like I didn't belong, maybe Mexico is finally calling me back home...stupid yes but that's what I believe.
I feel like I talk about Mexico a lot...
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and fix the mistakes I've done...like for instance when I first started working there was this guy who was completly perfect for me and he wanted to move down to N.B. to be with me...(yes I know what you are thinking, this guy is 21yr. old and he wants to move down here for you? crazy...)...anyways, I told him if that's is what he really wanted and he said "Yes" and I was so damn hesitant about it, it was too fast and unreal, he was literally a dream for me. I couldn't believe I was with this guy and we had so much in common and we made each other laugh and he made me feel like the most gorgeous girl in the world! It was like all he wanted was me, I felt so needed and wanted and desired; I loved it...and in Sept. we stopped talking b/c I got really busy with school...I regret that soooooo freakin much. He's always been on the back of my mind and I wish I never lost contact with him....but that's over and done with, I need to move on and forget about everything in the past and think about the present...
Even now I did some pretty stupid stuff out of anger and confusion and
I'm really sorry for it...but I won't be forgiven, so yeah...
That's my biggest flaw, not knowing when to move on and forget about things
I want school to be done already, so I can get my ass out of here and start a new life...who knows what the future has in store...
As days and nights pass by, I feel that Mexico will be good to me. Maybe I was meant to live there since the beginning, all my life I felt like I didn't belong, maybe Mexico is finally calling me back home...stupid yes but that's what I believe.
I feel like I talk about Mexico a lot...
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and fix the mistakes I've done...like for instance when I first started working there was this guy who was completly perfect for me and he wanted to move down to N.B. to be with me...(yes I know what you are thinking, this guy is 21yr. old and he wants to move down here for you? crazy...)...anyways, I told him if that's is what he really wanted and he said "Yes" and I was so damn hesitant about it, it was too fast and unreal, he was literally a dream for me. I couldn't believe I was with this guy and we had so much in common and we made each other laugh and he made me feel like the most gorgeous girl in the world! It was like all he wanted was me, I felt so needed and wanted and desired; I loved it...and in Sept. we stopped talking b/c I got really busy with school...I regret that soooooo freakin much. He's always been on the back of my mind and I wish I never lost contact with him....but that's over and done with, I need to move on and forget about everything in the past and think about the present...
Even now I did some pretty stupid stuff out of anger and confusion and
I'm really sorry for it...but I won't be forgiven, so yeah...
That's my biggest flaw, not knowing when to move on and forget about things