i can't eradicate what awaits when i awake...

[tormentedskin]

So, its 1:28 and i didn't goto school again today...i still feel like shit...not quite as bad yesterday, but nowhere near good...

"MY AMERICAN"
drink the sweet life
dripping from my heart
shattered like glass
as the innocent fall...
watch them all die
smirk for but a second
and begin to bleed
as the innocent fall...
coat my open wounds
with your salty kiss
indulging in my pain
as the innocent fall...
rip open the faces
of forgotten elders
and gaze at stupidity
as the innocent fall...
let the insects crawl out
from beneath newborn skin
and devour them swiftly
as the innocent fall...
offer despair to a family
painted in betrayal
and closed-mindedness
as the innocent fall...
throw the crystal smiles
into a friendly fire
while minds deteoriate
as the innocent fall...
speak of the loyalty
to the treasured demons
torturing your ears
as the innocent fall...
cover the eyes of boys
with prescriptions of hate
written by the hungry
as the innocent fall...
listen in on silent tears
rolling down a fractured cheek
and onto the needles
as the innocent fall...
tell the flavored lies
only to the deaf
hoping they will crack
as the innocent fall...
purchase the bodies
dirty and beautiful
and drown them in the ice
as the innocent fall...
call out to the smiling
whispers only holding death
wrapped in darkened paper
as the innocent fall...
nail the dolls into the hands
of unfaithful skeletons
frowning at the silver
as the innocent fall...
embrace the decaying snow
filled with horror and love
cheering for your defeat
as the innocent fall...

this makes me feel better...in hopes...that one day...love can make this all reality..and end the dreams that seem better than life...