I'm getting lazy
Things at the moment are doing fine but I know they can be better. I'm getting a bit too comfortable with my situation and I need to shake myself into gear to get the thing that is better. It is late and my mind is traveling thru darkness again. It seems I spout out the same things over and over again. It hasn't been so bad since I left the military. Now I'm focusing on school work and getting a job. There are still the things that make me want to wander about but I haven't gotten the courage to go out yet.
I'm going back home soon and I'm pretty sure it is mostly me at my dad's place trying to figure out my classes. Everyone else will be busy and since I won't have a car at my fingertips it is going to be a slow time, but at least I have space to myself. I think while in the military I got really lazy. So much extra time of nothing to do but sit. I hate doing that since I end up wandering into the darkness of my mind and feel my own heart sink. Now I'm just a bit too busy to feel down. If I loose it who will be there to see it anyway.
I'm going back home soon and I'm pretty sure it is mostly me at my dad's place trying to figure out my classes. Everyone else will be busy and since I won't have a car at my fingertips it is going to be a slow time, but at least I have space to myself. I think while in the military I got really lazy. So much extra time of nothing to do but sit. I hate doing that since I end up wandering into the darkness of my mind and feel my own heart sink. Now I'm just a bit too busy to feel down. If I loose it who will be there to see it anyway.