All I ever get in the end... is pain...
How can something hurt this bad? Heartbreak is the only thing I feel right now... I know I'm all alone now. All I have is Kayla now. *cries* Why does this hurt so much? I hate this. Love is a bullshit lie that you tell of to your children to give them false hope.That there is something so wonderful, that nothing can stand in it's way. Something that makes you do crazy things that you never thought you'd do in your life. Something that makes you realize that patience is a good thing... but you know what?! IT'S NOT TRUE!!! IT'S A FUCKING LIE!!! ALL OF IT!!! Love is something you'll only see in your fantasies... that's what it is. A fantasy. Fiction. NOT REAL!!! Why am I so childish to think that somebody could actually love me? Why do I have any hope? Why do I try so hard to end up with nothing? I hold on to things for too long. I don't do anything right. I can't ever be happy. God! Pain is all I feel right now. My heart feels like somebody reached in and crushed it. I'm nothing. So many thoughts are running through my head right now. I haven't slept at all tonite. I can't sleep... and I don't think I'll be sleeping for a while. I hate life and all it's little disasters. And all the lies it spreads. Nothing hurts as much as a broken heart... nothing...