Oct 10, 2006 09:07
I am really confused right now. I don't know why I should even bother with thinking about him but I do. I have been going through this for a year now--a year! I honestly don't understand what is going through my head or his.
He is 27. Am I even mature enough for a 27-year-old. Wait, I should correct myself. He is not only 27; he is an English grad student who is in the process of working on his thesis. What am I doing? Trying to finish my undergrad degree and struggling at it.
Yesterday he came over for Thanksgiving, but I don't know if he came for me or for Chris as Chris is friends with him. It is getting extremely confusing. I almost wish he would just tell me what the deal is.
I dislike games and I thought that men don't play games. I like him. I know he likes me, but what does he really want. I feel like I am being utterly neurotic right now.
I don't even know when he will phone me next; I suppose if two weeks go by and he doesn't phone me I should forget about him. Granted, he is a busy guy. When he is not working he is working on his thesis, working-out or at tae kawn do.
On a brighter note, tonight UFC TITO VERSUS SHAMROCK! HOLLLLLLLLLA!
(This is probably why he doesn't like me. I am not very serious and I act immature, but that is just who I am. ugh.)