Valentine's Day
Yeah. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Valentine's Day.. except for last year, I always seem to spend them alone.. and last years, though it was spent with a girlfriend, wasn't one I had particularly strong feelings for. Heh. And since we broke up, I've gone back to dreaming about the person I've loved for a handful of years now.. and remember how she either doesn't have feelings for me, or is afraid to lose me as a friend.. the matter's never been clear. I just hope (quietly) she doesn't read this.. just writing this out to try and work my feelings out - nobody really knows about this account anyhow.
If you've ever heard the old song 'All I have to do is dream', that song just about sums up how I'm feeling ATM. Spent the last two to three hours daydreaming about 'what if' - knowing full well it will never happen. *quiet laugh* Am I emo enough for ya yet? I suppose the reason all my posts are depressing is because I only seem to post when in the grips of some particularly strong feeling.. which also explains why I don't post often, as I've occasionally been accused of being too much like a Vulcan. I suppose I should consider that a compliment, if only it were true.
If you've ever heard the old song 'All I have to do is dream', that song just about sums up how I'm feeling ATM. Spent the last two to three hours daydreaming about 'what if' - knowing full well it will never happen. *quiet laugh* Am I emo enough for ya yet? I suppose the reason all my posts are depressing is because I only seem to post when in the grips of some particularly strong feeling.. which also explains why I don't post often, as I've occasionally been accused of being too much like a Vulcan. I suppose I should consider that a compliment, if only it were true.