Sleepy Saturday Mornings
Wow, I'm so heavy-eyed, so sleepy this morning here at work. I actually fell asleep quicker lastnight than I usually do on Friday nights. Lastnight after work I took the MS Access and Excel tests that Stephanie from Snelling emailed me. I thought I would have scored higher on the Excel test than the Access one, but that was not the case. I got a 60% on Excel and 70% on Access. Not sure if those are good scores or not. When I first signed up with Snelling I made a 84% on the MS Word test, and they were super impressed with that score. They said that was an "advanced" score. I've already kinda made up mind with the help of talking to Hunter, that this job that Stephanie has in mind making about .50 cents more an hour than I'm making now, wouldn't really be worth the move from my current job to a new one where benefits would have to start over. But I guess we'll see what happens. My scores on those tests might not be high enough for this possible position anyway. At least the tests are done and out of the way now.
I got ANOTHER letter from Jon in the mail yesterday. He's been writing me almost weekly the past 3 weeks or so, which I'm totally not used to. He brought up something that kinda bothered me. Apparently I fessed up with information, in a confessional way, on video tape on a beach trip a few year backs, that I had forgotten about, and he mentioned in this past letter, that it bothered him (not sure what I said, or what he's talking about really). Jon was the type of guy that would rock back and forth in his rocking chair, when he was upset, and would tune out the world. We never could discuss things and get over problems in a mature way when we had problems. I guess maybe this was one of those times, I didn't know why he was upset or mad with me. Kinda passive aggressive in a way, and doesn't resolve anything, if you don't know what you did wrong. How can you ever rectify anything? Jon seems to be over it, but he still remembers this incidence apparently, to bring it up in a letter. Not sure if I should ask him to elaborate or not, or just leave it alone. I am curious though.
Haven't really heard from Bradley. I know he was off and went to Nashville yesterday for the Lucinda Williams concert at the Ryman. I sent him a text yesterday telling him to have a good time and be safe, and he said thanks and gave me a cyber hug, and that's the last I've heard of him. It's now 11 a.m. and no word from him. He knows I'm a planner, and need to know in advance if he wants for me to come up, and since we never talked about getting together this weekend, I assume I'm staying here unless he lets me know otherwise. I feel an awkward distance with him, and I fear bringing it up with him, b/c he'll just deny it, and I'll come off looking/seeming like I'm crazy. I know he's afraid of commitment, but why does he have to make us seeing each other so awkward every weekend. When we get together in person, everything's normal, but the time away from that, everything is distorted and weird.
toriMODE/ Ron :0)