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Week break from hairstyling is over... But at least I officially start tomorrow. Though, I have a strange feeling that it won't be all that much different compared to what I did during the month trial... just without Shin breathing down my neck every time. But should be interesting nonetheless.
Besides that, I got some other surprising news... I've been invited to go to another research facility over the break for two weeks. I haven't decided if I want to go or not since it's all the way in Hokkaido, but I do need to tell them my decision soon. I... need to talk to a couple of people first...
And last but not least I think, Happy Birthday Marui~ You'd best appreciate what I'm doing...
Hiroshi - I had fun yesterday at the carnival~ Probably won't do it again any time soon, but one of these days? And I'll find out when the best day to go on that picnic will be.
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That trip yesterday... was something that I definitely needed. Despite being kept busy and all that stuff the last month, I felt... I don't know... Can't really describe it in words. I think it was one of those times where I just needed to get away do some reflecting by myself. It certainly felt like one of those times. Times where I need the time to remind myself that I'm not just the Trickster anymore... I had thought that I had locked away the worst part of myself a long time ago. But I guess the many masks of the Trickster aren't as locked away as I thought...
I shouldn't let this affect me... but it does. The fact that no one can see through all those layers... But, I'm not sure what to make of Mizuki almost breaking through though. He was close, but not close enough... On one hand it would have been nice to be able to just get it all out there, to actually tell someone. But on the other hand, I don't trust myself enough to actually tell someone... To let someone in that deep.
Hiroshi I'd probably tell, but I'm not close enough to anyone else. Besides, they probably wouldn't be able to tell anyway. Or at least the moment I act differently than who I "usually" am, namely the Trickster, it's then that they become concerned.
*sighs*
Enough of this... that part of me won't allow anyone to see me any differently than I have been. And it'll probably be like that for the rest of my life. I guess... I'll just have to deal with it. Though for how long, even I'm not sure. After all... I'm human too.
[ooc: And Jas, just fyi: he dressed up at a French maid for Marui's birthday present~ 8DD]
Besides that, I got some other surprising news... I've been invited to go to another research facility over the break for two weeks. I haven't decided if I want to go or not since it's all the way in Hokkaido, but I do need to tell them my decision soon. I... need to talk to a couple of people first...
And last but not least I think, Happy Birthday Marui~ You'd best appreciate what I'm doing...
Hiroshi - I had fun yesterday at the carnival~ Probably won't do it again any time soon, but one of these days? And I'll find out when the best day to go on that picnic will be.
[Private]
That trip yesterday... was something that I definitely needed. Despite being kept busy and all that stuff the last month, I felt... I don't know... Can't really describe it in words. I think it was one of those times where I just needed to get away do some reflecting by myself. It certainly felt like one of those times. Times where I need the time to remind myself that I'm not just the Trickster anymore... I had thought that I had locked away the worst part of myself a long time ago. But I guess the many masks of the Trickster aren't as locked away as I thought...
I shouldn't let this affect me... but it does. The fact that no one can see through all those layers... But, I'm not sure what to make of Mizuki almost breaking through though. He was close, but not close enough... On one hand it would have been nice to be able to just get it all out there, to actually tell someone. But on the other hand, I don't trust myself enough to actually tell someone... To let someone in that deep.
Hiroshi I'd probably tell, but I'm not close enough to anyone else. Besides, they probably wouldn't be able to tell anyway. Or at least the moment I act differently than who I "usually" am, namely the Trickster, it's then that they become concerned.
*sighs*
Enough of this... that part of me won't allow anyone to see me any differently than I have been. And it'll probably be like that for the rest of my life. I guess... I'll just have to deal with it. Though for how long, even I'm not sure. After all... I'm human too.
[ooc: And Jas, just fyi: he dressed up at a French maid for Marui's birthday present~ 8DD]