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alright my dearest lovemunchkins
i know i know, posting really isnt my thing, my last post where i actually, all by myself, talked about something going on in my life was quite a white ago, in fact to long ago to check. Now i hate talking bout stuff, not very good at it, if it werent necessary at times then no, of course i would never have to do such a thing so imma talk bout some things, some lolz.. hookay so
main thing bothering me is he who shall not be named ( no not voldemort silly, simz the man whorE) so okay... aah ive liked him for a while, lets say 8 months, god knows why8-). But aaah throught out my 8 horrid months of falling for him, hes liked me 4 of those times. The beginning of each time would be great you know, cuz well yeah, but then 2 weeks later he ends it. He just gets over me and says he likes another girl. Then he stops talking to me .. completely stops, doesnt even acknowledge me, doesnt even say sorry. Usually tends to block me as well. Its horrible and i never trusted him for it. So the last time its happened was in october. At banquet, we spent the most fkn incredible nitght (in my opinion) and like we would go outside of the banquet hal and sit there for prolli 40 minz and talk, he would try to make a move but i didint trust him so me, the stupid ass, didint let him kiss me. But we were sitting there, him holding me. and i did tell him i didint trust him, and he said he changed. he fuckin didint, he knows he didint. Then 10 days later we saw each other again, and he was all over me, ASK GABI, and i styll wouldnt let him kiss me... 2 days later he tells me that he likes someone new. I spent that whole weekend bawling over his autistic ass. Now he does not talk 2 me, he blocked me for a month before, at practice he say says "hi torii" as if to make me want him more, but i hope he dies, i cant do it, amnd theres nothing fuckin special bout him, i cant get over it, ii cant get over how he can do that to someone and not care, not even feel an ounce of guilt. I styll like him, and i think about him, and i need him. Im sorry ariel i could not tell you, im not good with the talking bout feelings thing, i had to take my time u know? im sorry:( but just aah, sorry for boring everyone:)
I love the holidays:) make me feel as happy as i possibly can. The snow, the home mad rice krispie squares (THATS RIGHT BITCH) the presents and teh christmas decorat8ions, oh and teh christmas carols lolz. I love christmas:) lolz however for new years, i wanna make some resolutions:)
<3stop spending so much money
<3stop biting nails
<3make friend with everyone
<3stop thinking of he who shall not be named
<3 never fall for anyone again
In high school, it seems that everything is about which group you belong in. Those people in the groups ALL mirror each other. They have their differences, but even these are slight. We, we are different. We are the Outcasts. The things we have in common are few, yet our friendship is the strongest. I'm glad we found each other, because I NEVER have to worry about being anything but myself in front of you, you just accept my faults and we move on. ..
i miss you guyz:( bFfL//a.o.s:)