hey

[torieab]

I guess its time to update on here.

I have tried to be a good friend to anyone.

I guess I give up on all this online stuff now.

My first ever diary was on Bloopdiary. I don't know why I even bothered.

I said I would never get into all this diary crap but I did.

And then I tried to make friends.

Ok, sometimes I dont talk much (on messengers). I never have. I may not crack jokes all the time. Due to certain things in my past I never will. So no-one wants to know.

Everyone wants me to be myself on here.

But why should I? No-one accepts me for who I am.

I give up trying to be a good friend and a good person to people. Because I try but half the time it doesnt seem like others care as much.

I jump in with two feet instead of being careful and going slow. And then I upset myself.

I dont really know if there is anything for this diary anymore.

I am not really me anymore.

I have changed.

And so I will probably start a new name. One that is relevant to the person who I am now.

And who will have access to it I dont know. I haven't decided really.

The same will probably happen on Bloop.

Torie has gone.