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[torie90]

Another Day, another morning. I think I feel better today, but not completely back to my chipper self. Last night with friends helped. So maybe today will be easier since I'll be in classes most of the day, keeping myself distracted. It's not nearly as effective as being with my loves, but its better then sitting here all day I guess. So I tried dying my hair last night and the red didnt work =/ I thought my hair was faded out enough on the bottom, but not so much. So im going to have to bleach it if i want to do the red...lol my poor hair, I might just wait awhile. So even though no one reads this (except kylie lol) I still feel better after writing it because it helps me get things out...it is more of a journal to me then a blog. But typing is a lot faster then hang writing. I have a feeling today is going to be a lot like yesterday in some aspects...bah. Oh and I found some movies that belong to Dane that I didnt know I still had...and one of them is his special edition of The Crow which is one of his favorite movies so I feel I should give it back..but this means seeing him, which I dont know how either of us will handle. We havent seen each other since we broke up. We almost did but he didnt think he could handle seeing me, so we decided its best if we just dont see each other. I could give it to someone to give to him...but I dont want to be a pansy about it. I thought I had more to say today, but im kind of blank at the moment...I'm still pretty blah and unsettled and I talked to Jon for like 5 minutes last night. I just hate how different everything got all of a sudden...I was so happy last week..constantly walking around with a smile, every time he would text me and I heard my phone go off all I could do was smile...I know its only been two days, but I miss it =/ it doesnt feel like its going to go back to that. I miss feeling that happy. Now im just Back to where I was before, but this time with more to think about.
So maybe tomorrow or the next day, or later this week I'll be posting more happy thoughts with a better attitude...be more of myself again..but for now we pray that things can be fixed quickly, so I can move on with my life. With or without whatever it was I thought I had.