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I'm so glad to see people cheering up. Watching them get things they've wanted, it's wonderful. If they may be happy, while I rest softly in despair, then so be it. I'd rather it be this way than the other way around, with me happy and all of them in my current position.
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Lauren has her Jason, Mike now has his Drum Major position, Sam has her Tim, Kaitlyn has her Jim, Charlie has her Blake, the list goes on.
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I tread a thin line on love and hate. There are few I feel a "love" for anymore, the list growing smaller; the numbers of those I hate still rise. The ones I love, know it. The ones I hate, unfortunately, do not in most cases. Just a note, if you were on the list above of me referring to you having something, you are definately not on the hate side. However, those on the other side (things these people have), are not exempt from my hatred. Shame.
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It's not that I'm jealous
Just that I can't live without you
My time is almost up
The line is nearly crossed
Love and hate are blurred
And so, too, is my vision
These tears blind me
From seeing you again
I'm on my last lines,
Don't know what else to do.
I've looked down the hole,
The home of my friend.
It isn't so deep.
It's dark, narrow, and cold.
So eager is he to leave.
In a plume of smoke.
[ Didn't mean to write poetry. Here we are, though. ]
Seven milestones...
Under a watching autumn eye
Contorted trees are spreading forth
The message of the wind
With frozen hands I rode with the stars
With anger the wind blew
Giving wings to my stallion
Clouds gathered across the moon
Blazing the white light
Passing the lake I know so well
I am near, yet so far away
Arrival...
I saw her shadow (standing) in the darkness
Awaiting me like the night
Awaits the day
Standing silent smiling at my presence
A black candle holds the only light
Darkness encloses
And the candle seem to expire
In her cold, cold hand
And as a forlorn soul
It will fade away
Touching her flesh in this night
My blood froze forever
Embraced before the dawn
A kiss brought total eclipse
And she spoke
Once and forever
I am so cold
In mist enrobed the twilight
She was standing...