Kill Me [Escape]
Do it. Do it now and get it over with. Read the title of the song.
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He's dead now. They both are. One Monday, the next today. I'd probably be next, if it weren't for my empathic ways. I know I would make my family and few friends too sad after three losses. I don't want to take anyone with me. This is something that has to be done alone.
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For now, I suppose that I will just trudge on the darkened wasteland of my life day by day, trying to find the bits of light left. Assume I'll appreciate those with all my heart, because what little is left is all I have.
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Either way though, my treasure I sought is now a forbidden fruit, and I must accept that it will be a long while before I can have it. If ever. The question is, can I, will I, wait that long? Will I even be here then?
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I don't know. I thought I was above this. Like no matter what I would never be so depressed. Like I could just get over it and be happy all the time. All of the bad things would just run together and be over with; not effecting me. I suppose not. With all the walls that surrounded me falling, there is nowhere really to run. I'm basically trapped in the middle of these forces, that aren't even meant to harm me. Yet they are. 'Tis a pity that I cannot fight back, for I may lose much more than I gain.
PS. I just found out after I wrote the original entry:
My Grandfather will be buried on my birthday.
Adieu
kill me [escape]
i can't help but
wonder what you think of me
can't stop my
imagining what you see
i won't keep on
if you just want me dead
but i'll stay here
be the voice inside your head
[Chorus]
i don't think you can escape me
and i don't think you want me away
i just need you to save me
cause i'm dying for you - a little every day
it's coming time
pondered this for all my life
i know what i need to do
heard your cries, and mine
a crimson solution left
the only choice remains
[Chorus]
I can feel your desire
like a burning in my heart
can't stop the fire
since you never let it start
i'm still here, won't you listen
don't deny what you can't see
because im not quite a ghost
you're not through .. killing me
[Chorus] x3