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I am tired.
I am tired of playing back up.
I am tired of discussing my problems in a nonconfrontational manner.
For once I would like to scream.
REALLY scream.
The type of scream that small children let out when they're hurt or sad.
I am a very little girl and I am hurt and sad.
I can't keep pretending that I can wait until summer to feel like a normal whole person again.
I don't feel productive.
I don't feel like my needs are being met.
My environment is not condusive to my mental well-being.
I have no magic here.
God, do kids at camp know how wonderful it is there?
I wish someone would rub my back and tell me everything is going to be ok until I can fall asleep.
But that person is currently soothing someone else.
It is 3:19 AM and I have an 8 AM class.
I am tired.
I am tired of playing back up.
I am tired of discussing my problems in a nonconfrontational manner.
For once I would like to scream.
REALLY scream.
The type of scream that small children let out when they're hurt or sad.
I am a very little girl and I am hurt and sad.
I can't keep pretending that I can wait until summer to feel like a normal whole person again.
I don't feel productive.
I don't feel like my needs are being met.
My environment is not condusive to my mental well-being.
I have no magic here.
God, do kids at camp know how wonderful it is there?
I wish someone would rub my back and tell me everything is going to be ok until I can fall asleep.
But that person is currently soothing someone else.
It is 3:19 AM and I have an 8 AM class.
I am tired.