[FIC] How I Wish...
Title: How I Wish...
Author: torakiss
Beta: my pride tells me not to beta it.
Pairing: Jaejoong/Yoochun (implied Yunho/Jaejoong)
Genre: Angst
Length: One-shot, 1043 words
Rating: PG-13
~♥~
At Tokyo Dome, the place of our dreams... The place where the five of us had dreamed of performing together.
It was our turn to sing. The song… it was a song that we wrote together. And as usual, you are wonderful. The stage lights made your skin sparkle, radiating your beauty, delighting my eyes. With a light and happy heart, I joined in the melody…
Your voice blended with mine. It was ethereal.
Kono basho kara
And I felt a pair of familiar, warm eyes looking at me. Even if there were a lot of people looking at me at that moment, I can only feel such gentle warmth from one person's gaze.
I opened my eyes, and continued to sing our song... Then I found you, looking fondly at me. That endearing smile you gave me, it was full of love... Such a feeling overwhelming me that I couldn't help but smile back.
How I wish you could always look at me this way...
That moment was mine. You were looking at me, smiling at me with so much love that it even took my breath away. No other person could have that blessing, none other than me. I thank the heavens for this moment of bliss.
That moment was ours. You were singing with me. Your voice blended with mine. You and me, we're singing together. Our fans were looking at us. And we were there singing, in our dream place. It was like we owned the world at that moment. Yes, that moment was ours.
It was then that I learned... Even heaven grants somebody’s seemingly impossible wish sometimes.
~♥~
Years went by, and like the leaves that grow and change as seasons pass, the most enthusiastic, cheerful-all-the-time Jaejoong hyung whom I have loved has now changed… How I wish that my love for you could be enough to make you happy… How I wish it could be enough to fill the emptiness that’s eating you inside. But I know I could never be enough. For I know that Jaejoong’s heart belongs to somebody else…
Although I would get jealous whenever you smile at Yunho-hyung with a smile that’s far more than unique with the one you always give to me, I always remind myself that Yunho hyung is precious to you. You needed Yunho hyung. Whenever Yunho hyung calls your name, your eyes brighten up and your lips automatically draw a curve on your face. It’s like everything in the universe is in their rightful place whenever the two of you are together.
And I know that the only remedy for hyung’s misery is the cause of it itself. I know that I could never be the one for you, hyung… But it hurts my heart to see you suffer like this.
I entered your apartment with ease, thanks to the spare keys that you entrusted to me. Why put so much faith in me, hyung? Things are in their usual places, with the exception of the stench of alcohol decorating the air. I followed the trail, and found myself walking towards your room, then towards the veranda. I couldn’t see where you are, and my heart started to pound hard in my chest.
“Yoochun-ah…”
Your husky, drunken voice welcomed me, calming my growing nervousness, leading my eyes to where you are. I turned to my left, and saw you seated on the floor, with your back leaning against the wall.
Empty bottles of gin, and a few cigarette butts on the floor. To what extent are you going to hurt yourself?
“Hyung, you’re drunk.”
“D’you think so?” you giggled. “Because I still think I need a drinking buddy.”
I let out a sigh. “Fine. You’re hopeless.”
I sat down on the space next to you. Looking up, I saw the clear night sky adorned with glimmering stars. The view from here is magnificent. How I wish you could appreciate what I could see too.
“Kampai?” you uttered, poking me with a half-filled glass of gin.
Reluctantly, I took the glass you offered, gulped it down in one go.
One shot, two, three, four… More came until we emptied one bottle.
“Yoochun-ah…”
“Yes, hyung?”
“You do know I love you, right?”
“Of course, silly. But I am fully aware that it’s not as much as you love that guy.”
“But… But…”
“But what?”
“But don’t you feel bad about it? I clearly know your feelings for me. And…”
“I’m really fine with it, hyung. This is how I love. Just letting you be happy is one of the least that I can do for you.”
An unexpected silence filled the air. You keep shifting your sitting posture, and I can sense that you are nervous. Or are thinking too deeply into things.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five.
Suddenly, you dragged yourself closer to me, and leaned your head on my shoulder. You took a deep breath, making me inhale in a parallel manner as well
Ah~ Kim Jaejoong, the things you make me do.
For that moment, I made a wish again… Let us stay closer like this. Let us stay this way just for a while longer.
“Yoochun-ah,” you called my name again.
I moved my head in a way that I could see your face. But even with the countless times that we’ve been together, I never fail to get starstruck by you. Heaven must be punishing me right now. Why do you always take my breath away?
“I love you, Yoochun-ah,” you whispered lightly, warming my cheeks with your intoxicated breath.
And out of the blue, you leaned closer to me… So close that your lips brushed against mine.
Love, do you always have to be bittersweet like this?
At that moment, you fell into my arms, passed out in the most delicately beautiful way. Looking up to the midnight blue sky again, I whispered some words to the distant stars... the words that you have heard from me countless of times, yet taken for granted.
"I love you too, Jaejoong hyung."
And I pray that even a pinch of stardust could grant my wish of seeing you happy again.
As long as you need me, Jaejoong hyung. I will always be by your side.
~♥~
A/N: I made this in such a rush because I promised myself that I have to post it today because today is supposed to be a special day. And I know this is too stupid for me to say because this is a bit late but this was actually inspired by maxism12's tweets ( ♥, ☺), which as you can see have been posted a long, long time ago. And YunJaeChun will always be my favorite threesome (or whatever that is called), ergo they have a special place in my heart. XD Give me some love, please? ;w;
Author: torakiss
Beta: my pride tells me not to beta it.
Pairing: Jaejoong/Yoochun (implied Yunho/Jaejoong)
Genre: Angst
Length: One-shot, 1043 words
Rating: PG-13
~♥~
At Tokyo Dome, the place of our dreams... The place where the five of us had dreamed of performing together.
It was our turn to sing. The song… it was a song that we wrote together. And as usual, you are wonderful. The stage lights made your skin sparkle, radiating your beauty, delighting my eyes. With a light and happy heart, I joined in the melody…
Your voice blended with mine. It was ethereal.
Kono basho kara
And I felt a pair of familiar, warm eyes looking at me. Even if there were a lot of people looking at me at that moment, I can only feel such gentle warmth from one person's gaze.
I opened my eyes, and continued to sing our song... Then I found you, looking fondly at me. That endearing smile you gave me, it was full of love... Such a feeling overwhelming me that I couldn't help but smile back.
How I wish you could always look at me this way...
That moment was mine. You were looking at me, smiling at me with so much love that it even took my breath away. No other person could have that blessing, none other than me. I thank the heavens for this moment of bliss.
That moment was ours. You were singing with me. Your voice blended with mine. You and me, we're singing together. Our fans were looking at us. And we were there singing, in our dream place. It was like we owned the world at that moment. Yes, that moment was ours.
It was then that I learned... Even heaven grants somebody’s seemingly impossible wish sometimes.
~♥~
Years went by, and like the leaves that grow and change as seasons pass, the most enthusiastic, cheerful-all-the-time Jaejoong hyung whom I have loved has now changed… How I wish that my love for you could be enough to make you happy… How I wish it could be enough to fill the emptiness that’s eating you inside. But I know I could never be enough. For I know that Jaejoong’s heart belongs to somebody else…
Although I would get jealous whenever you smile at Yunho-hyung with a smile that’s far more than unique with the one you always give to me, I always remind myself that Yunho hyung is precious to you. You needed Yunho hyung. Whenever Yunho hyung calls your name, your eyes brighten up and your lips automatically draw a curve on your face. It’s like everything in the universe is in their rightful place whenever the two of you are together.
And I know that the only remedy for hyung’s misery is the cause of it itself. I know that I could never be the one for you, hyung… But it hurts my heart to see you suffer like this.
I entered your apartment with ease, thanks to the spare keys that you entrusted to me. Why put so much faith in me, hyung? Things are in their usual places, with the exception of the stench of alcohol decorating the air. I followed the trail, and found myself walking towards your room, then towards the veranda. I couldn’t see where you are, and my heart started to pound hard in my chest.
“Yoochun-ah…”
Your husky, drunken voice welcomed me, calming my growing nervousness, leading my eyes to where you are. I turned to my left, and saw you seated on the floor, with your back leaning against the wall.
Empty bottles of gin, and a few cigarette butts on the floor. To what extent are you going to hurt yourself?
“Hyung, you’re drunk.”
“D’you think so?” you giggled. “Because I still think I need a drinking buddy.”
I let out a sigh. “Fine. You’re hopeless.”
I sat down on the space next to you. Looking up, I saw the clear night sky adorned with glimmering stars. The view from here is magnificent. How I wish you could appreciate what I could see too.
“Kampai?” you uttered, poking me with a half-filled glass of gin.
Reluctantly, I took the glass you offered, gulped it down in one go.
One shot, two, three, four… More came until we emptied one bottle.
“Yoochun-ah…”
“Yes, hyung?”
“You do know I love you, right?”
“Of course, silly. But I am fully aware that it’s not as much as you love that guy.”
“But… But…”
“But what?”
“But don’t you feel bad about it? I clearly know your feelings for me. And…”
“I’m really fine with it, hyung. This is how I love. Just letting you be happy is one of the least that I can do for you.”
An unexpected silence filled the air. You keep shifting your sitting posture, and I can sense that you are nervous. Or are thinking too deeply into things.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five.
Suddenly, you dragged yourself closer to me, and leaned your head on my shoulder. You took a deep breath, making me inhale in a parallel manner as well
Ah~ Kim Jaejoong, the things you make me do.
For that moment, I made a wish again… Let us stay closer like this. Let us stay this way just for a while longer.
“Yoochun-ah,” you called my name again.
I moved my head in a way that I could see your face. But even with the countless times that we’ve been together, I never fail to get starstruck by you. Heaven must be punishing me right now. Why do you always take my breath away?
“I love you, Yoochun-ah,” you whispered lightly, warming my cheeks with your intoxicated breath.
And out of the blue, you leaned closer to me… So close that your lips brushed against mine.
Love, do you always have to be bittersweet like this?
At that moment, you fell into my arms, passed out in the most delicately beautiful way. Looking up to the midnight blue sky again, I whispered some words to the distant stars... the words that you have heard from me countless of times, yet taken for granted.
"I love you too, Jaejoong hyung."
And I pray that even a pinch of stardust could grant my wish of seeing you happy again.
As long as you need me, Jaejoong hyung. I will always be by your side.
~♥~
A/N: I made this in such a rush because I promised myself that I have to post it today because today is supposed to be a special day. And I know this is too stupid for me to say because this is a bit late but this was actually inspired by maxism12's tweets ( ♥, ☺), which as you can see have been posted a long, long time ago. And YunJaeChun will always be my favorite threesome (or whatever that is called), ergo they have a special place in my heart. XD Give me some love, please? ;w;