Wow rant. I suppose.
So, I guess it is the good old drama that I've thought that everyone gotten over, but I guess not, so I've been really uncomfortable with a lot of things that I have come to realize.
For one, it appears that nothing has changed. History, that had a habit of repeating itself already did, and the guild, YET ONCE AGAIN, a bloody year later, has split up ONCE MORE because of the same person who caused the upheaval in the first place. However, the guild master refuses to do anything about it. I'm sorry, but I don't understand how you are doing this? Do you not want your guild to succeed? This time, the "Nazis" weren't around, THIS TIME it were different people, with different habits, and what happens? SAME FUCKING THING. SURELY, it's not the world's PROBLEM but that ONE person's. I know, he's a friend, but honestly, if my friend was a douchebag like that I would have told him so. In fact when my friends ARE douchebags I DO tell them so. I'm not bitching, I'm just pointing out the facts.
Two - if I wanted to transfer my main character to the guild, I have serious doubts about ever bringing myself to do that, I like the guild master, but the fact that they allow some people's ambitions get in a way of bettering the guild is a flaw. I'm sorry, you know me, I'm straight as an arrow. But anyway, if I wanted to transfer my character I have to re-apply? WHY? For one, TWO of my alts ARE ALREADY in the bloody guild. That's one. Two, if people have something to say to me, they can say it to my face and not use this "application" bullshit to talk about me behind my back. I'm not looking to start trouble, but since I am HONEST with people, always, I would APPRECIATE the same honesty back.
Three - If I ever WANTED to be an officer, despite OF ALL THE SERVICE I've done for the guild because ONE person doesn't happen to AGREE with me, I can never be one? Why? Because people don't like their egos deflated? Oh, I am sorry, overcompensating for small penis much? YOU KNOW there is trouble, you have been PROVEN yet AGAIN that the FAULT was NOT with US. Yet you still let people get away with things in the worst possible way. I don't know why, but you know, frankly I no longer really give a shit.
Four- and the very last one, it's been a fucking year. You know, I've been in all other guilds and I've never had a single speck of trouble anywhere. I've been an officer in other guilds, I've been just around to raid, I've done things and seen things and am more learned, I guess because of it. Not once, have I EVER had any trouble with anyone, despite of how deeply and passionately I cared for something. Shouldn't THAT speak for my own record? I mean, lets just say I was wrong because I wanted something to better the guild at the time, but due to the fact that I was a n00b I didn't realize it was not. But the fact that I know different now, should be a good show that I no longer think the way I used to? SO why am I still severely discriminated against, despite the fact that I've done nothing but simply let things go? The fact that you are telling people who used to be in the guild and HAVE THEIR ALTS IN THE GUILD that they have to re-apply as their MAIN character, or the fact that even if they do outstanding service for the guild, OR HAVE DONE SO IN THE PAST, they will NEVER be able to be an officer? I never offended a single member of the guild, the only people that had a problem with me, are the same people, that have JUST caused your guild to split, painfully, I might add, YET AGAIN.
But you know what, I made my peace with it, and quite frankly I just want to level with David and Keiko and not give a flying fuck about the guild's politics or what is going on in it. I don't ever again wish to be an officer in a guild that discriminates and treats SOME people better than others, but not based on their merit, just based on the fact that they live in the same state. I know a lot of things have been my fault, and I have corrected them/learned better. But yet, a year later, with the same event happening again, I have yet to hear my apology for being called a NAZI because I happened to disagree with the preferential treatment of close friends vs other guild members.
WHO is holding grudges now, huh?
So, in conclusion, I'm just going to quietly level with people I actually like and not really participate, care of the guild happenings. I won't start a single problem, and in fact I will probably stay the hell away from forums. I'm not saying sorry for what I did. What I did was right. Recent events have proved it. What I am saying is that, I realize that there will be no end to being discriminated against for having an opinion or disagreeing with "golden" circle. Though, it's all right. If a "golden" circle can't deal with ego deflation and honesty, then it's not the circle for me.
Peace.
Out.
Faithfully yours,
Irematte (Hunter extraordinaire and a part time rabbit queen on weekends)