Time to talk
Well yea i do love jeremy but the thing is that i dont know if he loves me back. I wish that there was someway that i could talk to him cuz i think that its time for us to have a very long talk and me to actually tell my parents that i have to see him so that me and him can talk about something serious and if what i am told is true then i think that maybe i don't know. I don't feel good now and all i wanna do is go and hide so that no one can see me upset. but as it stands i have no where to go so i'm stuck and i've gotta stay as calm as i can. Hold it rewind I can't go jumping to conclusions i gotta talk to Jeremy and if he wants to talk to me he'll call me. and all i don't get it. What could i have done to make him not wanna call me. The whole time that we've been together he hasn't called me once and i was gonna invite him and his family over for dinner but i think that maybe i should wait on that cuz well after i was told that he probably didn't like me any more and if he really feels thata way then maybe i should just give up and let him go becuse i couldn't call my self loving him if i made him unhappy to be with me and all.I feel like i probably will end up crying this out later.but for now i just don't know i need to talk with him and find out exatly how he feels about us. Cuz if he ain't happy i can't be happy because i love him.Well i gotta go i'll right more later.(sigh)