To those I've added as a friend: an insight
When I first joined this site it was just after the turn of the new millennium. There have been a few username changes since then, I no longer am in any stupid and psychologically unhealthy online forums, and I've had to unfriend everyone on here (but made them IRL friends instead), due to stalkers and my ex.
I try to keep this journal as anonymous as humanly possible, because the rest of my online life is just so public,and I'm getting sick of the way I've taken a hacksaw to my personal privacy, though it seems to be the only way to keep up with my social group - especially my closest friends who all live abroad. Because I've had a pretty shitty mental health run (spoiler: 17yrs), a lot of this has been quite toxic venting of both the moods I've been in and the colossal back-up of regrets and (probably foolish) stale ambitions that result from not being in a fit mental state to fulfill your potential for a very long time. I try to keep those posts private because even though this is a journal, it doesn't serve anyone to hear that shit. It's always been a great relief to me to think a small group of mindful people may or may not be reading and commenting on the small tragedies of my day to day existence. By contrast, the fact that some people plaster their mental health issues like billboards on their public profiles seems completely insane and damaging. LJ is one of the few spaces I feel is actually private, even though it's technically completely open.
The people I've added recently are very different from those that I befriended when I was in my early-early 20's. As much as possible I want to hear about people whose lives are very different from my own, and don't contain (as much) trauma and drama as I'm used to hearing. So if I added you, congratulations you sound like a relatively sane, nice person who just gets on with life. The number of 'characters' that exist in my immediate surroundings is a bit blinding, so much so that life is always on a strange topsy turvy slant and its hard to keep track of reality. I'm ok with being in the centre of the chaos, don't get me wrong it's good to know how weird life can get, but my plan is for this to be my small space of quiet an relative normalcy. But don't worry, if your life goes tits-up and you decide to identify as a gerbil I'm still here for you.
So anyway, that's about all I have to say to everyone and about myself. If I've added you it's because I like your vibe, not because I'm a ghost from your past (as far as I know!!)
Besos.
I try to keep this journal as anonymous as humanly possible, because the rest of my online life is just so public,and I'm getting sick of the way I've taken a hacksaw to my personal privacy, though it seems to be the only way to keep up with my social group - especially my closest friends who all live abroad. Because I've had a pretty shitty mental health run (spoiler: 17yrs), a lot of this has been quite toxic venting of both the moods I've been in and the colossal back-up of regrets and (probably foolish) stale ambitions that result from not being in a fit mental state to fulfill your potential for a very long time. I try to keep those posts private because even though this is a journal, it doesn't serve anyone to hear that shit. It's always been a great relief to me to think a small group of mindful people may or may not be reading and commenting on the small tragedies of my day to day existence. By contrast, the fact that some people plaster their mental health issues like billboards on their public profiles seems completely insane and damaging. LJ is one of the few spaces I feel is actually private, even though it's technically completely open.
The people I've added recently are very different from those that I befriended when I was in my early-early 20's. As much as possible I want to hear about people whose lives are very different from my own, and don't contain (as much) trauma and drama as I'm used to hearing. So if I added you, congratulations you sound like a relatively sane, nice person who just gets on with life. The number of 'characters' that exist in my immediate surroundings is a bit blinding, so much so that life is always on a strange topsy turvy slant and its hard to keep track of reality. I'm ok with being in the centre of the chaos, don't get me wrong it's good to know how weird life can get, but my plan is for this to be my small space of quiet an relative normalcy. But don't worry, if your life goes tits-up and you decide to identify as a gerbil I'm still here for you.
So anyway, that's about all I have to say to everyone and about myself. If I've added you it's because I like your vibe, not because I'm a ghost from your past (as far as I know!!)
Besos.