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1. I am incredibly uncomfortable being vulnerable.
2. You make me incredibly frustrated but I like that
3. Excuses are like assholes, everyone has one.
My brain stopped accepting excuses a long time ago. Either you did something, because of something else, or you didn't, also because of something else. In this case, you didn't because you didn't want to. It's clear. If you were tired, you could have answered in the morning. You not working doesn't even come into play on this one, douche.
4. You never answered my question, 'do you like me?'. Entirely silly but this is essential to my brain functions. Also, you used to send me good morning texts and now I don't even get that. :(
Wait, should I be doing that too?! Yes. Ok, that one is nixed because if I want that, I should be able to reciprocate.
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And the moral of that story is GO FUCKING FOR IT.
I wrote the top part about a week or so ago. Maybe more. And the next day, I sent kyle a good morning text and now we are closer than before. Just a matter of taking things into your own hands. Within reason. He's so swell.
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
The last person who texted me was Derek, and yes I would. The last person I texted was my mom, and no. Ew.
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
Yes! Mr Diaz, who is wonderful and I love him.
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
Yes. Totally have.
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
It's not a big deal, but that doesnt mean I trust easily. Not at all actually, and I like it like that.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
I saw Kyle yesterday. :) I met his brother Sebastian, who doesn't like being called Seb.
6. What are you excited for?
Next month. Getting a raise. Things finally being a little bit fucking easier for me financially.
7. What happened tonight?
Today was Easter, so I switched into the bigger, nicer room (YES) and took a nap. After I went to hang out with Frank and we got high and watched movies and GAME OF THRONES FUCK YEAH and he made dinner and it was really nice.
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
As a girl who gets really wasted, no that's dumb. Unless you hurt someone or yourself, then stop it dude.
9. Is confidence cute?
Of course. That's a silly question. Even too much confidence is generally more attractive than no confidence.
10. What is the last beverage you had?
Water. And before that a Bud Light.
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Mr Diaz. And Dan, actually he seems like someone who can keep a secret. Frankie, I suppose.
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Its all I like to wear. I have three pairs of jeans, two of are skinny.
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
This Saturday I will be up north partying with my dad and Ka!
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
Hopefully some groceries man, girl's gotta eat.
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
Yes. Yes, last time I discussed this with Kyle we are officially dating, although that doesn't mean exclusivity, because I like to flirt. But it does mean monogamy, because I'm not really a whore.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
Hopefully. Change is good, it mean's you're not stagnating.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Mr.Diaz. I feel comfortable with most of the people I talk to, but Mr Diaz I can tell absolutely anything and he will always answer.
18. The last time you felt broken?
Recently, I don't remember the exact date, but every month there's at least one day or night where I just can't believe what the fuck I'm doing. But it always passes and I don't mind the sad days as long as they don't stay.
19. Have you had sex today?
NO. It's been like three days, which is a lot for me recently. If Kyle had anything to do with it, we would have boogied in the backseat of the car like savages. We've done it, but I was late to see Natalie! And his brother was waiting for him, the dirty little man. :3
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
Bunch of things. Like I don't pay enough attention to people's names man. That shit gets rude real quick.
21. Are you in a good mood?
I ate too much, but yeah. Like some minor physical aches, my knees oddly. My stomach, yeah. My uterus, which sucks but comes with the territory.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
Yes, in a cage with lots of film and cameras.
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
The same beautiful shit brown, baby.
24. What do you want right this second?
To not have eaten so much. And to be better paid.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
CHEEEEE YOOOWW. And then some clapping, laughing, and a teasing conversation following.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
TOTALLY. Although I think I should dye it black again. The stark black looks great against my pale beautiful face.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
Nope. Can't even talk to people who can't make me laugh.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
A movie. Frank's farts. haha
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
No, not really. George Washington, Ben Franklin. ;_;
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
No. Some things can't be looked over and some lessons need to be learned the hard way.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
No, that would be silly. We just stopped talking. We both knew we couldn't give each other what we wanted.
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
Yes because I make sure to tell him.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
I get into moods, but normally I don't even think to drink soda.
34. Listening to?
Tom Waits and the Heartbreakers
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
I write mostly in pen now, but I miss doodling in pencil.
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
Hopefully home!
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.
38. Who did you last call?
Returning Chelsea's call.
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
Kyle. Noo, maybe Jen B at the Good Bar.
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because he is adorable and sexy and yum! And it was good bye.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
Saturday and it was half red velvet half chocolate!
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
Nope.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
Probably but I can't recall it now.
44. Do you tan in the nude?
I don't tan so trick question.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
Nope.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
Nope. Almost fell asleep in the bath though.
47. Who was the last person to call you?
Chelsea, the silly duck. Watching Spring Breakers indeed.
48. Do you sing in the shower?
Totally. And in the car, and to the babies and by myself and whenever I am drunk with Nicole.
49. Do you dance in the car?
Like a dancing fiend!
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
Yeah, in Jr. High. It was way tough but it was interesting to learn how to do that.
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Ugh, like...Jr High again. Me and the twins went to the mall and got cholo pictures. They are hideous.
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Yeah, but I like some of them. If they're good. Rent is meh, but Phantom of the Opera is LEGIT.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
VERY. I really dislike that holiday. Too much pressure to feel something I can't generate well.
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
HOME MADE MOTHA FUCKA. They're alright.
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
Rhubard-strawberry. Or Banana.
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Zoologist. Because I liked the word.
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Nope. That shit is foolish yo. But it's still fun to hear ghost stories from people.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yeah, strongly when I was a kid, but not so much since I stopped dreaming.
59. Take a vitamin daily?
Iron, it helps prevent major bruising.
60. Wear slippers?
House slippers like a champ! Totally useful creations. As a kid I thought they were silly, but since I like to change outfits whenever I can, slippers have come in handy.
61. Wear a bath robe?
Nope, just a towel. Those still feel weird.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Whatever Iw as wearing that day, or yoga pants and a baggy tee. No bra because I can't torture myself all the time.
63. First concert?
Good Charlotte. Pretty good show too.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target. Less shame inducing.
65. Nike or Adidas?
Neither. Vans yo!
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos for munching, Fritos for dipping.
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds. I dont care if I'll get a bubble on my tongue, those things are delish.
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
Idk, whatever is playing.
69. Ever take dance lessons?
As a little girl, yeah.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Working in general would be swell.
71. Can you curl your tongue?
Yes, and do the taco and flip it to one side, but not the other.
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
No but I totally could!
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yeah, I think so.
74. What is your favorite book?
I'm re-reading Lady in the Lake by Raymond Chandler right now. I like a lot of different books.
75. Do you study better with or without music?
Without. But I need to read out loud while I study or else I get distracted.
76. Regularly burn incense?
Not anymore but I have been reminiscing on the scent.
77. Ever been in love?
Totally. I miss it, but am not too eager to feel that way again. It's a lot of power to give someone over your feelings.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
Anyone I already know. Anyone I haven't seen.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
That rockabilly show Natalie took me and Britt to. That was fun.
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
Depends on the tea! So both, really. I make myself hot tea, and buy cold tea.
81. Tea or coffee?
Tea over plain coffee, expresso over tea.
82. Favorite type of cookie?
Chocolate chip with walnuts. Almond cookies. Clarissa's PB and J cookies.
83. Can you swim well?
Decently. No real confidence, I suppose.
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yeah, it's weird that some people can't man.
85. Are you patient?
With children, yeah. With stupidity no.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
I want both at mine, but I suppose a DJ if I can't.
87. Ever won a contest?
I don't think so.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
Nope.
89. Which are better black or green olives?
Black olives frsr
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
DUH. You don't buy a car without first taking it out on a test drive. Sex is a big important part of adult relationships. Either the having of or the not, but either way it needs to be discussed and hopefully experimented with before agreeing to chaining your life with another person's.
91. Best room for a fireplace?
Living room
92. Do you want to get married?
Yeah, I do. Not a traditional wedding, def not in a church, but a ceremony yeah. It would be a really swell party and I can't turn down a party.
93. Are you a virgin?
Nope.
94. When was the last time you had sex?
Thursday? I think. Yeah. Thursday.
95. Favourite food?
Thai, Japanese, Chinese, Mexican, ...yeah.
2. You make me incredibly frustrated but I like that
3. Excuses are like assholes, everyone has one.
My brain stopped accepting excuses a long time ago. Either you did something, because of something else, or you didn't, also because of something else. In this case, you didn't because you didn't want to. It's clear. If you were tired, you could have answered in the morning. You not working doesn't even come into play on this one, douche.
4. You never answered my question, 'do you like me?'. Entirely silly but this is essential to my brain functions. Also, you used to send me good morning texts and now I don't even get that. :(
Wait, should I be doing that too?! Yes. Ok, that one is nixed because if I want that, I should be able to reciprocate.
~~~~
And the moral of that story is GO FUCKING FOR IT.
I wrote the top part about a week or so ago. Maybe more. And the next day, I sent kyle a good morning text and now we are closer than before. Just a matter of taking things into your own hands. Within reason. He's so swell.
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
The last person who texted me was Derek, and yes I would. The last person I texted was my mom, and no. Ew.
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
Yes! Mr Diaz, who is wonderful and I love him.
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
Yes. Totally have.
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
It's not a big deal, but that doesnt mean I trust easily. Not at all actually, and I like it like that.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
I saw Kyle yesterday. :) I met his brother Sebastian, who doesn't like being called Seb.
6. What are you excited for?
Next month. Getting a raise. Things finally being a little bit fucking easier for me financially.
7. What happened tonight?
Today was Easter, so I switched into the bigger, nicer room (YES) and took a nap. After I went to hang out with Frank and we got high and watched movies and GAME OF THRONES FUCK YEAH and he made dinner and it was really nice.
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
As a girl who gets really wasted, no that's dumb. Unless you hurt someone or yourself, then stop it dude.
9. Is confidence cute?
Of course. That's a silly question. Even too much confidence is generally more attractive than no confidence.
10. What is the last beverage you had?
Water. And before that a Bud Light.
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Mr Diaz. And Dan, actually he seems like someone who can keep a secret. Frankie, I suppose.
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Its all I like to wear. I have three pairs of jeans, two of are skinny.
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
This Saturday I will be up north partying with my dad and Ka!
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
Hopefully some groceries man, girl's gotta eat.
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
Yes. Yes, last time I discussed this with Kyle we are officially dating, although that doesn't mean exclusivity, because I like to flirt. But it does mean monogamy, because I'm not really a whore.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
Hopefully. Change is good, it mean's you're not stagnating.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Mr.Diaz. I feel comfortable with most of the people I talk to, but Mr Diaz I can tell absolutely anything and he will always answer.
18. The last time you felt broken?
Recently, I don't remember the exact date, but every month there's at least one day or night where I just can't believe what the fuck I'm doing. But it always passes and I don't mind the sad days as long as they don't stay.
19. Have you had sex today?
NO. It's been like three days, which is a lot for me recently. If Kyle had anything to do with it, we would have boogied in the backseat of the car like savages. We've done it, but I was late to see Natalie! And his brother was waiting for him, the dirty little man. :3
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
Bunch of things. Like I don't pay enough attention to people's names man. That shit gets rude real quick.
21. Are you in a good mood?
I ate too much, but yeah. Like some minor physical aches, my knees oddly. My stomach, yeah. My uterus, which sucks but comes with the territory.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
Yes, in a cage with lots of film and cameras.
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
The same beautiful shit brown, baby.
24. What do you want right this second?
To not have eaten so much. And to be better paid.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
CHEEEEE YOOOWW. And then some clapping, laughing, and a teasing conversation following.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
TOTALLY. Although I think I should dye it black again. The stark black looks great against my pale beautiful face.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
Nope. Can't even talk to people who can't make me laugh.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
A movie. Frank's farts. haha
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
No, not really. George Washington, Ben Franklin. ;_;
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
No. Some things can't be looked over and some lessons need to be learned the hard way.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
No, that would be silly. We just stopped talking. We both knew we couldn't give each other what we wanted.
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
Yes because I make sure to tell him.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
I get into moods, but normally I don't even think to drink soda.
34. Listening to?
Tom Waits and the Heartbreakers
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
I write mostly in pen now, but I miss doodling in pencil.
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
Hopefully home!
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.
38. Who did you last call?
Returning Chelsea's call.
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
Kyle. Noo, maybe Jen B at the Good Bar.
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because he is adorable and sexy and yum! And it was good bye.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
Saturday and it was half red velvet half chocolate!
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
Nope.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
Probably but I can't recall it now.
44. Do you tan in the nude?
I don't tan so trick question.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
Nope.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
Nope. Almost fell asleep in the bath though.
47. Who was the last person to call you?
Chelsea, the silly duck. Watching Spring Breakers indeed.
48. Do you sing in the shower?
Totally. And in the car, and to the babies and by myself and whenever I am drunk with Nicole.
49. Do you dance in the car?
Like a dancing fiend!
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
Yeah, in Jr. High. It was way tough but it was interesting to learn how to do that.
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Ugh, like...Jr High again. Me and the twins went to the mall and got cholo pictures. They are hideous.
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Yeah, but I like some of them. If they're good. Rent is meh, but Phantom of the Opera is LEGIT.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
VERY. I really dislike that holiday. Too much pressure to feel something I can't generate well.
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
HOME MADE MOTHA FUCKA. They're alright.
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
Rhubard-strawberry. Or Banana.
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Zoologist. Because I liked the word.
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Nope. That shit is foolish yo. But it's still fun to hear ghost stories from people.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yeah, strongly when I was a kid, but not so much since I stopped dreaming.
59. Take a vitamin daily?
Iron, it helps prevent major bruising.
60. Wear slippers?
House slippers like a champ! Totally useful creations. As a kid I thought they were silly, but since I like to change outfits whenever I can, slippers have come in handy.
61. Wear a bath robe?
Nope, just a towel. Those still feel weird.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Whatever Iw as wearing that day, or yoga pants and a baggy tee. No bra because I can't torture myself all the time.
63. First concert?
Good Charlotte. Pretty good show too.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target. Less shame inducing.
65. Nike or Adidas?
Neither. Vans yo!
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos for munching, Fritos for dipping.
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds. I dont care if I'll get a bubble on my tongue, those things are delish.
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
Idk, whatever is playing.
69. Ever take dance lessons?
As a little girl, yeah.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Working in general would be swell.
71. Can you curl your tongue?
Yes, and do the taco and flip it to one side, but not the other.
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
No but I totally could!
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yeah, I think so.
74. What is your favorite book?
I'm re-reading Lady in the Lake by Raymond Chandler right now. I like a lot of different books.
75. Do you study better with or without music?
Without. But I need to read out loud while I study or else I get distracted.
76. Regularly burn incense?
Not anymore but I have been reminiscing on the scent.
77. Ever been in love?
Totally. I miss it, but am not too eager to feel that way again. It's a lot of power to give someone over your feelings.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
Anyone I already know. Anyone I haven't seen.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
That rockabilly show Natalie took me and Britt to. That was fun.
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
Depends on the tea! So both, really. I make myself hot tea, and buy cold tea.
81. Tea or coffee?
Tea over plain coffee, expresso over tea.
82. Favorite type of cookie?
Chocolate chip with walnuts. Almond cookies. Clarissa's PB and J cookies.
83. Can you swim well?
Decently. No real confidence, I suppose.
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yeah, it's weird that some people can't man.
85. Are you patient?
With children, yeah. With stupidity no.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
I want both at mine, but I suppose a DJ if I can't.
87. Ever won a contest?
I don't think so.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
Nope.
89. Which are better black or green olives?
Black olives frsr
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
DUH. You don't buy a car without first taking it out on a test drive. Sex is a big important part of adult relationships. Either the having of or the not, but either way it needs to be discussed and hopefully experimented with before agreeing to chaining your life with another person's.
91. Best room for a fireplace?
Living room
92. Do you want to get married?
Yeah, I do. Not a traditional wedding, def not in a church, but a ceremony yeah. It would be a really swell party and I can't turn down a party.
93. Are you a virgin?
Nope.
94. When was the last time you had sex?
Thursday? I think. Yeah. Thursday.
95. Favourite food?
Thai, Japanese, Chinese, Mexican, ...yeah.