Smokey Slumber Party
I spent all night tonight, with a cat that publicly I hated. The same cat my wife has grown up with, that I talked shit upon my whole relationship with.
I showed up the other week to help my wife possibly put her down, I was supposed to be the strong one....to help her through the struggles of putting down a pet,(who I thought I didn't care about.) I think I cried more than she did for all of the smallest reasons.
The only reason i'm still awake is because of this cat. I thought I never liked her until a vet told me she didn't have much time, and until I think about all the joy she ever brought my wife, and all the endless conversations Smokey sparked when we were young. The joy she brought everyone... period.
And god damn it Shmoe, you're eyes offer only forgiveness, and undying love, as tough as I act, with all my cat hatred....Shmoe is is the only cat that I can ever see love in their eyes, and I witnessed it tonight.
As crazy as it sounds, she forgave me tonight...and she will forever be the first cat to hold a special place in my soul, heart, and memory.
A long time ago, when Brittany and I were first "internet dating" she was talking to some guy about her cat, and how beautiful Shmoe was, and I always poked fun about how ugly she was...but without realizing it, one of her friends actually said something great, that I am just now learning to fully appreciate about that animal.
He said the typical, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder." Because overall, Smokey is not an attractive cat, she is kinda like a used bleach rag. But my wife brings the best out in all people, and animals. When it comes to Smokey, the "beauty" is literally her loyalty, and willing to survive no matter the hard times, just to be around the people she loves.
"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" I never really analyzed that saying until tonight. I never thought for a second that this cat, could reflect the same love glaring eyes my wife gives me, even through the toughest of situations, that sadly just like everyone else on the planet...you aren't even aware of.
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I showed up the other week to help my wife possibly put her down, I was supposed to be the strong one....to help her through the struggles of putting down a pet,(who I thought I didn't care about.) I think I cried more than she did for all of the smallest reasons.
The only reason i'm still awake is because of this cat. I thought I never liked her until a vet told me she didn't have much time, and until I think about all the joy she ever brought my wife, and all the endless conversations Smokey sparked when we were young. The joy she brought everyone... period.
And god damn it Shmoe, you're eyes offer only forgiveness, and undying love, as tough as I act, with all my cat hatred....Shmoe is is the only cat that I can ever see love in their eyes, and I witnessed it tonight.
As crazy as it sounds, she forgave me tonight...and she will forever be the first cat to hold a special place in my soul, heart, and memory.
A long time ago, when Brittany and I were first "internet dating" she was talking to some guy about her cat, and how beautiful Shmoe was, and I always poked fun about how ugly she was...but without realizing it, one of her friends actually said something great, that I am just now learning to fully appreciate about that animal.
He said the typical, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder." Because overall, Smokey is not an attractive cat, she is kinda like a used bleach rag. But my wife brings the best out in all people, and animals. When it comes to Smokey, the "beauty" is literally her loyalty, and willing to survive no matter the hard times, just to be around the people she loves.
"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" I never really analyzed that saying until tonight. I never thought for a second that this cat, could reflect the same love glaring eyes my wife gives me, even through the toughest of situations, that sadly just like everyone else on the planet...you aren't even aware of.
S