Different but Sane (21/?) Torchwood
Chapter Twenty
Jack
I turned around to see James standing at the doorway of the kitchen. The look on his face seemed to suggest that he had been happy before. Probably had a good time at Gwen’s which made me feel relieved, well that plus probably bumping to Martha. Though now because I was standing in the kitchen, he was now angry to see me. I didn’t answer but turned back to the counter and poured the kettle into the cups.
“I wanted to see how you were.” I replied a few minutes later as I placed the cups on the table. “Come sit.” I added pointing to the chair.
James reluctantly sat down and took the cup into his hands. He eyed me until I sat down on the chair opposite. He put his head down and started to sip the tea. I did the same and we stayed silent for awhile until James broke the silence.
“I’m fine, just miserable.” James replied, his tone rather bitter, “To be honest I want to kill you.”
“I’d like to see you try that.” I answered with a laugh.
“Why were you scared when I fainted?” He asked which made me speechless.
I didn’t how to answer that. It was something I knew that it would be still on his mind. I didn’t want to tell him the truth because I thought he wouldn’t believe me. He sat there waiting for me to answer him but I couldn’t get myself to speak.
“Well?” He asked but I still didn’t answer. After awhile he spoke again, “Please Jack I really want to know.”
This time I snapped, “I heard your voice in my head calling out for help.” I replied, “There satisfied?” I asked after seeing James’ face.
“Yes.” He replied rather calmly.
“You already knew didn’t you?” I asked standing up.
He nodded and put his head down. I should have known that somebody had told him. I wasn’t mad but now worried about the man who sat across from me. Did it scare him? Was he starting to question how he had done it? He stood up and walked closer to me. I stood there waiting for him to punch me but instead he grabbed my coat and pulled me into a kiss.
Now heaps of people have kissed me in the past but never have I been surprised. Well once when Martha kissed me awhile ago but this was even more surprising. I never realised that James had fallen for me but maybe it had been recent. Instead of taking control of the kiss I pulled back. James started to blush and put his head down.
“Sorry that wasn’t supposed to happen.” He said.
I cupped his chin, “I won’t lie to you James when I say I feel the same way but....”
“That was what I was afraid of.” James replied before turning to leave. He stopped at the doorway and said “I hate myself for loving you Jack.”
I walked up to him and put my arms around his waist. “I don’t blame you.” I told him.
“Please don’t leave.” He whispered.