last night

[topazemrys]

I wish I could--
but maybe I can...
I guess...

I want to be able to control myself
My MIND... my BRAIN
I don't want to admit that perhaps I can't
Although I already know it's true

Why why why
Oh poor me
pity party
stupid trivial nonsense

I dwell on my Bed of Pain
wallow in my Sack of Woe

Compassion...
Do I need more...?
Or do I care too much already?