around is a circle
oh hey livejournal!
i have been neglecting you.
well. shit... where to start?
I feel like I am still waiting. Waiting for the right time, the right person, the right situation so that i can let go of my inhibitions and be happy again. Don't get me wrong. I am a happy person. I love my family. I love my friends. I have a good time.
I don't really trust that anything good will stay though. I live in fear of endings whether happy or otherwise.
I feel let down. I have worked so hard to avoid a jaded outlook and a bad attitude and I have let myself trust despite my better judgment. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all right?.... Riiiiiight.
I am so glad for christmas time right now. I need that goodwill toward men outlook and it is a good time to remind people that you adore them without getting laughed at for being too mushy... well at least you can not get laughed at as much. Depending on your audience.
I am having a difficult time resolving myself to the fact that some answers you will never get. I have no frame of reference and I feel a bit lost. I guess patience is the only real answer.
Patience, the gym, and music....
I feel as though i could go on with this entry but it would be more of the same. But feel free to offer insight or candy.
Like my dad says 'if you really love something, let it go'
i have been neglecting you.
well. shit... where to start?
I feel like I am still waiting. Waiting for the right time, the right person, the right situation so that i can let go of my inhibitions and be happy again. Don't get me wrong. I am a happy person. I love my family. I love my friends. I have a good time.
I don't really trust that anything good will stay though. I live in fear of endings whether happy or otherwise.
I feel let down. I have worked so hard to avoid a jaded outlook and a bad attitude and I have let myself trust despite my better judgment. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all right?.... Riiiiiight.
I am so glad for christmas time right now. I need that goodwill toward men outlook and it is a good time to remind people that you adore them without getting laughed at for being too mushy... well at least you can not get laughed at as much. Depending on your audience.
I am having a difficult time resolving myself to the fact that some answers you will never get. I have no frame of reference and I feel a bit lost. I guess patience is the only real answer.
Patience, the gym, and music....
I feel as though i could go on with this entry but it would be more of the same. But feel free to offer insight or candy.
Like my dad says 'if you really love something, let it go'