The art of smiling again....

Aug 13, 2007 17:57

Today was my first real day at Reach Out and Read. Everything went even more smoothly than I anticipated. I was really confident in everything that I was doing and that made a pretty big difference. I was told by multiple people that this position will be what I make of it and that suits me well. I like jobs where I have the freedom to expand the position as I see fit. As much as I enjoy the the flexibility, I want to make sure that I am not stepping on anyones toes or making any changes that create work for someone else. I guess I am going to take time to feel out the position and see what is the best fit for the program.\
It was definitely hard to say goodbye to Horizons. It has been a huge part of my life for so long and the children really light me up. I had an intense conversation with a mom right before I left that made me doubt it was time to move on. But I really feel that its best. I hope that I am able to see the children from time to time. We did have a dinosaur party for me and it made me really happy to see everyone together one last time.

Ok. So, I havent done much updating since Ive written the post about Chicago. I am in the process of making a web album so the pictures for that will be available shortly (in addition to all of the pictures people have asked me for). Chicago was so beautiful and I was surprised to see how much of the city is catered to the people who live there and what is available. It seems so much more accessible than Boston in that way. The city planners have put time and energy into making a community it seems. I suppose it could be vacation goggles but I was impressed nonetheless.

This weekend was one of the more relaxing weekends I have had in quite some time. My sister came to visit with the baby which made everything seem more awesome. She got here on Friday night and Erin, Wes, and I were pregaming on the back porch. We hadnt really spent too much time together without a crowd so it was really nice to bro-down and talk about what everyone had been doing the past few months. Then my sister came and she was craving life outside of the country. So we all went to Newtowne(classy I know) and got a ton of pizza and beer and everyone got to really meet her. It made me happy to see all of my friends and my sister together so flawlessly. AND the baby slept through all of it! GOOOD BABY. haha. The next day my sister, Liam, and I went to the beach with one of her college friends. It was beautiful and it was the baby's first beach trip. I got to swim for a really long time and I got a nice base tan for North Carolina.
and then...

THE HOEDOWN! (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS)
This was so much fun. Everyone really dressed up and stayed in character. It was a summerlicious party and one of the best parties I have been to in years. Erin and Nate put so much effort into it and it showed. Matt and I took our WANTED posters home for prosperity. There was a great deal of eating, drinking, and dancing. No scene. No bullshit! It was really wonderful to see everyone together.

The next day Matt brought me back to my place and He, his sister, my sister, and I went out to breakfast. It was a nice send off before her long trip home. I slept a bunch afterwards because I have been so busy and stressed about the new job/ending my time in direct care.

Coming up: Bouncing Souls (also, meeting matts ex!)
North Carolina (I already secured a surf board)

On a sadder note, My dad does need to have Chemotherapy. He will start this week. Its going to be really hard and I just can't help but feel slighted by the hand I have been dealt this year. I am really scared for my dad but not freaking out until there is reason to. I think that my family is so strong and we have so much support from friends so we are lucky.
My dad did feel well enough to quiz Matt about what he does and what kind of car he drives so it cant be all THAT bad. :)
I have also been thinking about the cosmic unfairness of Kelly's death. There were so many things on her horizon.. So many plans that we had discussed and so much to do. I really miss her. I have a hard time not thinking about her. I could really feel her absence at Nate and Erin's on Saturday. Now that the time for grieving is becoming less and less. I wonder how to make her part of me without completely sinking under the weight. I loved her. I miss her.

Thats about all I have for today.
LOVE!
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