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Man have i felt like shit for awile now... i hate everything going on in my life, i feel really lonly and sad, i have lost everyone and i feel just so left out and it really hurts that no one feels the same or even cares. It really hurts!! I really wish i could have someone to run to but i dont. nobody is the same or even feels the same. Im really losing touch with this relationship. i kind of just want it to end and move on with my life. i have a feeling im just hoping things will go back to how they use to be if i just let him go. im not sure if deep down thats what i believe.maybe im just wanting something new i need a change im really sick of feeling like i have no one. i cant live with out a bestfriend but all mine go to the dumps. i wish i could fall back to my old one and they would just let me cry to them and would be there for me but i cant trust they would its deffently not the same. i wish they could understand how bad i need them. i need to talk to someone that cares about me. God i just want everything back so bad why does things have to be so damn hard. im sick of taking day by day and not looking forward to tomorrow.i wish i new what to do to just make me happy. i just want to be happy for a change.