..still sorting out life but im doing alright..

[tootsiepop17]

..yeah life throws you curves
but you learned to swerve
me i swung and i missed
and then next thing ya know
im reminiscing
dreaming old dreams
wishing old wishes
like you would be back again..

i've decided..that some days are easy
and some are harder
and today was one of the hardest ones
and i dont even know why
today wasnt any different than any other day
it was just relaly hard
and it hurt so bad
and the whole day i was just sad
but i guess if i can make it through today
w/out talking to him at all
i think i'll be okay
id ont think its ever gonna be easy
its like losing your best friend
honestly..
and it just hurts so bad sometimes
and i just wanna give in
but i didnt :)
so i guess thats okay
and i know i'll be okay
and this whole thing will go away at some point
or hopefully it will just hurt less..
i'll go to bed tonight
and wake up tomorrow
and hopefully..i wont feel like this
b/c i'll have made it through another day
and i just have to keep believing
b/c i know i deserve better
i deserve so much better than that
and i want better than that for myself
but thinking that doesnt make it hurt less..
oh well
its just another day..

..i wake up and teardrops
they fall down like rain
i put on that old song we danced to and then
i head off to my job
guess not much has changed
punch the clock, head for home
check the phone,just in case
go to bed, dream of you
thats what i'm doing these days..