sittin, waitin, wishing
hmmm. between what i want, what i have, what i cant have, and what im will never want im fucked. im sick of shit like this. i wanna be 18. deb offered me an apratment wif i goto a floria collge. she finnally gave me permission to get a motorcycle...when im 18 on my 18th birthdya so im saving now. commin sunday ill eb in my perfect world, my heaven, my little sweet glistenign buble where nothign can harm me. 90 feet under water the things necessary for life coem out of a pice of plastic the size of a fuckin bead. to think all that keeps me alive is hundereds of beads. fucked up.im all woozy, and my eyes are heavy. its kind of a hastle to breathe. i haev a shitload of schoolwork to do. I HATE WOMEN. wtf does everyoen ahev against music no matter what whenever someone asks me what im listenign to as for tonight on vetn. whats that kevin: mellincolin "FUCK THAT" oh well i learned a kempo move tiem to drop niggers. i love my system and i have amazing luck. i know i understand it..... rx bandits are commin to town. i need to start sleeping again. i hated work today. i wish i had abrams left hand.i wish i could sing so i could start an acoustic band and make girls with feeligns fall in love wioth me. "even if i dotn reach teh top i still got lots here to appreciate" i will get arms byu nexty summer. wtf am i its summer i ahevnt surfed once. *seen teh beach since spring.....rbf should be today i dont know if im goin yet. i got my ticket though huh. ive been getting frzier in shape because jodie asked me to. frazier and sterlign are balls of pent up kids wth sexual frustration. im back to aheving no sex drive. its been forever sinc ei though about havign sex. its real nice. i want to go find a bench in the park in teh hot sun and jsut sleep. then i just wanna wake up whenever and eat via picnic on a picnic blanket. i unlike everyone dont wanna go back to school. im never gonna escape. i miss the "catyst of conflict" still looking for a "violin". "i ahve done nothign for everythign i am ashamed" i want to kill an indian. sin city needs to coem out on dvd. and i end u with the most imporant pice of advice of all time..............."quit rythmes with shit and thast all ull ever be if you do"