one week left!
i'm heading back to CMU on sunday, dorms open at noon so hopefully i will be on the road by then. before break when i thought about 5 weeks off, i was excited, it was awesome. but now as i head into that last week, it really was way to long. it was good to see blair and my whole family during xmas, but other than that.... i have no life.
i hate being here. i can't wait till next year when i have my apartment and i won't have to be stuck in HP when i don't want to be. Hazel Park isn't my home anymore. i don't have any real ties. i do have my family, but its family, when you are with them for a month straight after only seeing them once a month, it gets very annoying. but it has been nice to be close to blair, i just wish we had a chance to hang out more. being in HP i am not with my friends. i don't have people coming over all the time, i don't have people calling me or IMing me asking me if i wanna do something. and even if i do call people or talk to them online, they are busy. but do they call when they arent busy... no not likely. and my friends from school are on vacation or they are like kevin who live 3 or so hours away. it sux big time...i'm just tired of sitting at home everyday with nothing to do.
i have become the biggest bum ever. i don't wake up until almost one. more than half the time i don't even bother getting ready because whats the point. what do i have to wake up for? what do i have to get ready for? the tv programs i watch because i have nothing else. i read in everyones journals about all the stuff they have been doing, all the fun they have been having. sounds great, i'm glad some people are happy, but frankly i just want to leave. i don't think anyone will miss me. maybe my parents would... naw i think they are getting as sick of me as i am getting sick of them. i feel so emo now. maybe its the new drugs, all the crazy hormones causing this crappyness i feel. or maybe this is growing up and realizing that the people you grew up with don't want to be there anymore.
i hate being here. i can't wait till next year when i have my apartment and i won't have to be stuck in HP when i don't want to be. Hazel Park isn't my home anymore. i don't have any real ties. i do have my family, but its family, when you are with them for a month straight after only seeing them once a month, it gets very annoying. but it has been nice to be close to blair, i just wish we had a chance to hang out more. being in HP i am not with my friends. i don't have people coming over all the time, i don't have people calling me or IMing me asking me if i wanna do something. and even if i do call people or talk to them online, they are busy. but do they call when they arent busy... no not likely. and my friends from school are on vacation or they are like kevin who live 3 or so hours away. it sux big time...i'm just tired of sitting at home everyday with nothing to do.
i have become the biggest bum ever. i don't wake up until almost one. more than half the time i don't even bother getting ready because whats the point. what do i have to wake up for? what do i have to get ready for? the tv programs i watch because i have nothing else. i read in everyones journals about all the stuff they have been doing, all the fun they have been having. sounds great, i'm glad some people are happy, but frankly i just want to leave. i don't think anyone will miss me. maybe my parents would... naw i think they are getting as sick of me as i am getting sick of them. i feel so emo now. maybe its the new drugs, all the crazy hormones causing this crappyness i feel. or maybe this is growing up and realizing that the people you grew up with don't want to be there anymore.