Letting go of my headdd... I'm falling....
Ok, call me ridiculous, but I am obsessed with that jerky Candice Alley (sp ????) song, Falling? Im a sad case I know, but I just can't stop singing it, and now I've downloaded it things are going from bad to worse.... Hahahah Apart from the ridiculous name, why do I keep getting weird obsessions with strange songs... It's one of the great mysteries that is.... Caitz....
However, that was not the point of this post, altho it easily could be, since it definately counts as either a terrible mental illness or a possible loser syndrome.
Anyway... I didn't get up to much again today, and I loved it. Got up pretty late cos I couldn't sleep last night. Did some lazing then went round to Todd's. We went to see Charlies Angels ;) I loved it, but then again, what;s not to love, 4 hot bitches (counting Demi) in awse, ever-changing outfits kicking some serious arse... MMmmmmmmmm
Came home around 5:30, beanbagged, then rehearsal. Did some more work on the worst song in the world, ate chicos and dark chocolate. Read a Cosmo magazine and learnt the art of perfecting my base and had a squiz at the 'best bra for me' section. How thrilling. Home and nerding it up for a while.
I'm learing a few lessons lately about trust. I guess my trust issue isn't going to be going away soon, because just as I get to think I was the one who had it all wrong and people really do deserve to be trusted, someone does something to set me straight and realise that I should in fact trust no one.
I guess it's something I need to work out for myself, but it sure does worry me.
On another note, I had a long talk with someone very close and important to me, and I'm glad it happened. Altho it wasn't all good, it's nice to be able to be open and honest about things. Kinda contradicts my earlier point, but yeah, I guess trust takes work and takes time and takes both people working on it for it to happen.... Might sound pretty basic to a lot of people, but for me...
I guess I'm afraid to take that step with anyone new, because everytime I seem to manage it, I get hurt again. But, it's important to realise that it's not always going to be that way, and I guess I'm gonna have to start risking my heart a bit more if I'm going to figure out who the genuine people are....
I should probably go to sleep. I'm getting tired and emotional. This has been a somewhat uneventful, but nonetheless interesting night. I have some thinking to do.
"If you could only see
all the tears that are falling
and the answers that i need
and everybodys telling me
and i dont know whats real
wont you tell me how you feel
you can live your life
everybody wants to say goodbye"
Outz
However, that was not the point of this post, altho it easily could be, since it definately counts as either a terrible mental illness or a possible loser syndrome.
Anyway... I didn't get up to much again today, and I loved it. Got up pretty late cos I couldn't sleep last night. Did some lazing then went round to Todd's. We went to see Charlies Angels ;) I loved it, but then again, what;s not to love, 4 hot bitches (counting Demi) in awse, ever-changing outfits kicking some serious arse... MMmmmmmmmm
Came home around 5:30, beanbagged, then rehearsal. Did some more work on the worst song in the world, ate chicos and dark chocolate. Read a Cosmo magazine and learnt the art of perfecting my base and had a squiz at the 'best bra for me' section. How thrilling. Home and nerding it up for a while.
I'm learing a few lessons lately about trust. I guess my trust issue isn't going to be going away soon, because just as I get to think I was the one who had it all wrong and people really do deserve to be trusted, someone does something to set me straight and realise that I should in fact trust no one.
I guess it's something I need to work out for myself, but it sure does worry me.
On another note, I had a long talk with someone very close and important to me, and I'm glad it happened. Altho it wasn't all good, it's nice to be able to be open and honest about things. Kinda contradicts my earlier point, but yeah, I guess trust takes work and takes time and takes both people working on it for it to happen.... Might sound pretty basic to a lot of people, but for me...
I guess I'm afraid to take that step with anyone new, because everytime I seem to manage it, I get hurt again. But, it's important to realise that it's not always going to be that way, and I guess I'm gonna have to start risking my heart a bit more if I'm going to figure out who the genuine people are....
I should probably go to sleep. I'm getting tired and emotional. This has been a somewhat uneventful, but nonetheless interesting night. I have some thinking to do.
"If you could only see
all the tears that are falling
and the answers that i need
and everybodys telling me
and i dont know whats real
wont you tell me how you feel
you can live your life
everybody wants to say goodbye"
Outz