MONDAY MORNING RANT....
What a way to start the week,
Despite getting a letter from the Dean of the University in my first year [congratulating me on my high achievement], and getting a prize for having for the highest mark in the Industrial Relations unit I did in my second year.... my mother still has to ask me if “I feel like packing it all in” and reminding me how useless I was in primary school....
I am finding it difficult to keep motivated in the 3 units that I am doing externally this year.... I know I am not a self motivator, but I am handing in my assessable work on time.... just behind in the reading.... that’s all.....
Not sure if she does it to spur me [on because I get so angry at her when she says those things] or if she really would feel better if I did just roll over and fail!
I think she wants me to fail because she knows when I am finished this degree and the 1 year graduate placement [I am going to apply for] with the West Australian State Government.... I will be looking for work in Melbourne, Sydney, or even London.....
It is so frustrating, because my husband and my friends have all been so supporting and have all commented that while they were proud of my achievements they were not surprised.... but my own mother is shocked when I tell her about my achievements.....
It is weird how one person can undermine the good that everyone else I know does for me..... not to mention the good I do myself.....
And then she wonders why I don’t call her.......!
Well now that is out of my system, I better get on with all this reading and studying I have to do....don’t want to prove her right after all!