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Living in a new house is pretty sweet and now my room is really coming together now that I have my Labyrinth poster up. Now all that's missing is my Little Ashes poster and of course my favorite Hooters girl, Nesie. Apart from that, things are also looking up, I registered for orientation for HCC which will be August 11th so at least college is a positive guarantee. But being vegan has been a complete waste considering its been a month and I've actually gained weight, not to mention I eat significantly less and nothing like I did before. So pretty much, I'm giving that up, besides it wasn't even for moral purposes, as horrible as that may sound. To be honest, I'm just really tired of trying to be something I'm not. I'm not athletic, I don't like working out, and I guess even if I completely cut out all bad foods I still don't lose weight. But the point is, is that I don't really care if I lose weight or not, or rather I do, but not for myself. I'm tired of people telling me how good I would look if I was thinner, but why can't people think I look good how I am now, and to be real, I really don't find really thin people attractive, and personally I like how I am. I just feel all of this pressure to look "good", but again, isn't it possible for me to look good without weighing significantly less? It's like maybe I like having some thickness and maybe I don't want to look like every other person and have to be completely obsessed over what I eat. Whatever.